My name is Erin. I am a 25 year old female who has been very healthy and active my entire life up until the last 6 months where I have encountered some difficult health issues. Let me tell you a brief back-story which will lead up to where I am now.
In August of '09 I got engaged and thought I finally had all my ducks in a row. However, in early October I was sent an e-mail from my best-friend since 3rd grade explaining to me that my engagement was too hard for her and she couldn't be there for me as she needed to take care of herself. This of course was devastating too me, and this is the beginning of some very difficult months to follow. About 3 weeks after this my fiance was laid off from a very good job. About a month following that, I was rushed into the ER after collapsing at work and was diagnosed with an ectopic pregnancy. I had to have emergency surgery, one of my fallopian tubes had to be removed and I lost a lot of blood. I was then told that conceiving naturally someday may be difficult. Obviously this was devastating but I didn't think I needed therapy over it. Within the following 3 months I began spring semester taking 15 units while working 2 jobs because my fiance was having a hard time finding work. In march, I then had a severe reaction to an antibiotic. This is when things get very weird.
Although my reaction was severe, I didn't have to go to the hospital it just made me very ill until I got the meds out of my system. However, after the reaction I never felt the same. It felt as though my adrenaline never stopped pumping or like my fight or flight switch never shut off. The first week after I was miserable. I couldn't leave the couch. I had heart palpitations, insomnia, trembles, etc. I went to an urgent care facility not too long after because it dibilitated me completely. She prescribed me a small prescription of xanax which eased the severity of symptoms but never got rid of what I was feeling completely. Now almost 3 months later, I still have constant brain fog, i feel light-headed, have clammy hands, cold extremities, and a constant fear and sensation like "something is gonna happen" or "i have cancer" or "i am dying". The thoughts WONT stop and although the thoughts are more common then not, they aren't constant. However, the physical symptoms are constant. I finally went to the Dr. again last week and was prescribed Zoloft and diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I have only taken it for a few days and no symptoms have been relieved although I was warned they wouldn't.
I guess what I want to know is, I have been so healthy all my life. Is it possible, that I am having a nervous breakdown of some kind due to my life being so stressful the past few months? Can this be temporary or is this permanent? My fiance got a new great job and I am taking the summer off from school. Is it possible that if i slow my life down that I may see some beneficial changes in my health? Also, what I have noticed after reading about anxiety and panic disorders, along with depression is that there can be triggers. Could the ectopic pregnancy have been more or less the straw that broke the camels back? Could I have some subconscious trauma caused by the surgery?
This condition I have been diagnosed with is very frustrating and I guess I am looking for some hope. I feel like I am going crazy and it is starting to effect my relationship because I have basically been a mess since Jan.