Hello, im 15 years old. kinda a longish story, When i went to middle school, i think my problem was i used to be a little shy so i never really talked much during class with a lot of other kids. Well, that wasnt really much of a problem, it seemed kinda normal at the time. Anyway, so i didnt really make much friends during middle school though i did have a group that i used to hang out with and talk to.
Now, im here at my second year of high school. The first year, i still talked with some of my friends but i noticed that my talking during class seemed to decrease a lot. Most other kids usually talked a lot during discutions about certain things, i never really made the effort to join in. I just kinda sat there waiting for the classes to end. So, time went by that year and i didnt make any new friends, i just iscolated myself even more.
Now, in my second year of hs, i notice im having a big problem that never used to happen. First of all, i have really no freinds or even kids that i talk to or hang out with during my frees. I have became totally iscolated. I am starting to try and open up more because i dont like being completely alone and it shouldnt be that way. Problem is whenever i want to say something outloud, my heart rate goes up, i begin sweating and i have to keep repeating the thing i want to say in my head before i say it to make sure it sounds right. Whenever i am forced to talk out loud to a class, i notice my voice gets really low and weak and like im struggling to get a word out. I have been noticing this a lot lately and im trying to handle it before it gets worse.
Im a completely normal person at home and talk normally and can even be funny sometimes, i just cant act the same way around other people, no matter how hard i seem to try. The more i try, the more pressure i feel so i just then do nothing