Hi all,
I am new to the forums which I happened to come across the other day, I really enjoyed reading peoples stories and it made me realise how common the whole anxiety thing is, its not something I have ever felt overly comfortable disucssing with people because people look at you like your crazy or say stupid things like dont worry about it like you can just flick a switch!
Sometimes it seems a bit harder for me because im a 28 yo male and work in the fitness industry and its just not the image alot of people have of an anxious person.
I have realistically suffered from anxiety my whole life but it really hit me a couple of years ago. I remember being a kid and terrified something was going to happen to my parent or that I was going to forget to breathe while asleep.
A few years ago I began to suffer from more severe anxiety although I didnt realise it, I was getting all the symptoms but didnt realise what it was and I worried something was wrong with me, so I worried more and I got worse until I googled my symptoms (BIG MISTAKE) and decided I had MS which sent me off the rails totally. I was in a permanent state of panic, I was my gp who told me it was anxiety, of course I didnt believe them and went for all the tests and overtime I learned to recognise anxiety symptoms although I still ran off to the doctor if something came along I couldnt consider anxiety.
I had it under control for the most part with meltdowns in between until the start of this year when it got me again. I had a kidney stone (I think) and had blood in my urine...so I naturally decided I had bladder cancer or some such even though the whole episode lasted less than 12hours and then went away. I got better and it happened again so even bigger meltdown ensues, in between I also manage to convince myself that I have a brain tumour, Leaukemia, skin cancer, testicular cancer and everything in between. The blood happened a 3rd time and I went off the rails for a bit, of course the fact that each time it happened was after heavy exercise and not enough water so I was dehydrated and each time it cleared up in hours. In amongst all that I did the round of various cancers again plus worried to death about everyone I knew.
I was really bad over the last week as well with the whole feeling I couldnt cope, crying and depressed and frustrated and all that goes with it but I am gradually pulling myself back together again, after finding this forum I thought Id love to help other people out who are struggling and enjoy the support of people on here.
Sorry for the long post, wont do it again!
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Originally Posted by learningtobreathe
