I feel so awful all the time … I suffer from depression and social phobia, and lately it seems to be getting worse. I have been isolating myself from everyone I know for a while now because I feel so self-conscious about everything, but lately I have been so depressed and lonely. I am tired of living like this, but I have no energy and no enthusiasm for anything anymore it seems. I was married for over eight years but my wife left me a couple of years ago, a lot of it had to do with my emotional distance …. ever since then I have been going straight downhill. I have lost some good friends because of this anxiety / personality disorder. It is like I want to be alone but at the same time I am lonely …. I don’t want to be a burden to anyone though so I just keep to myself. I turn off my phone and just watch TV and movies and surf the web all day. The anxiety is just building inside and I just don’t want to be all alone anymore. I have been on Lexapro for a while now but it doesn’t seem to be helping much …. granted, if I don’t take it I feel even worse but it doesn’t seem to be really helping the depression or anxiety much. I am just pushing everyone away because it seems like I just don’t feel comfortable around people anymore. I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore. Thank God my dog is still here.