I am posting this in 2 different forums because I am not sure where this fits.
I recently switched job professions to be a CNA in a Long Term Care (Nursing Home) facility. It began almost instantly (maybe about 2 weeks in) when I began to get extremely upset at work. Crying mostly for several minutes. I would go into the bathroom to hide it.
Now it is getting worse. Before I go into work I get nauseous, heavy breathing, and my heart starts pounding. I get this way when I think about work. It can ruin my whole weekend sometimes. On my way to work a get extremely upset, I cry with all my might.
I love what I do, and I know these feelings are completely irrational. There is nothing I can think of that is the "reason" for this.
These feelings take up so much of my time and energy that I go in exhausted. I feel like maybe I am just lazy and don't want to work, which gets me depressed thinking why do I belong here in the first place then?
I know I should get help but live in an area where you would have to drive over 200 miles for a specialist and can't afford it even with insurance.
Don't know what to do. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!