Don't worry about Peter though.
Peter is the big tough muscle hero type, like Rambo.

Quote Originally Posted by John Rambo
I have been lonely most of my life
Friday at 11:40 AM
I know how you feel. I have been lonely for years as well. It makes you feel shit off from the world, even when people are close at hand. So I spend a lot of time posting on forums.

Online though, I think some people just aren't very nice. It depends on what sites you use. I had issues with being stalked, and sometimes it can feel like you're being discredited or mocked if you're hanging out in the wrong type of communities.

I haven't really had any relationships worth speaking about either. They were all very brief, and chasing after one ex years ago proved to be a fruitless pursuit.

Maybe you could join websites where you can find a local group with similar interests to your own. Like if you liked art, there could be a group that is about art as well.

I feel it already helps if you have a common interest, as opposed to being in a group where attendees just talk about anything. I don't like that. I don't even know how to hold a conversation. People that have spoken to me feel surprised at how knowledgeable I am about old music, for example. I reckon they would expect me to know more about current media, giving my age. But you also need to know social cues for fear of rambling a bit.

I also have pretty dire anxiety. It's so bad that I don't even use buses. It's quite upsetting, because then if you don't get over the anxious feelings, you remain feeling hopeless. There's no miracle cures either. I think medication could help, but it can cause you to feel dependent on using pills. Nobody wants that.