I'm having major issues with my autism support agency!
PeeturDCF
Former member
Nov 2, 2014
Hello.
Ever since 2007, I have been receiving support from a company in Scotland that has an outreach service to aid those with autism. In recent years, they messed things up by arranging four teams. When I say that they messed things up, I mean they placed people into four individual teams, meaning I stopped receiving support from some of the people I liked working with in the past. Now, I am not sure if that qualifies as the seniors messing things up, as such, but that is not the issue at hand here.
Way last year, I got silly after a break-up (well, it was not really a break-up as such), but I asked a woman to date me post separation. One that happened to be one of my support workers.
I had known it was not allowed, but I felt lonely and fed up of my life being emptyish, especially after being financially abused by a woman I had spent years trying to have a relationship with when I finally found her after doing a lot of intense searching and she was my only girlfriend as well, but she also has mental issues and she was only interested in my money. There is a huge lack of women in my life besides using escorts, but I realize I overstepped a boundary.
I have saw my ex-girlfriend on and off, but just as a pal who seems to have an unstable mood that goes up and down like a see-saw.
Anyway, I only wanted another chance with the female support worker and they gave me a single shift with her again in the summer of 2013 as a trial or something, but they never really cleared anything up about it. When I asked about having more shifts, a guy repeatedly fobbed me off and I saw through it, so I got mad, talked about her on Facebook, then shot myself in the foot. After that, they would not put her with me any more, but I still seen her on sleepovers at my supported accommodation, as their office / sleepover flat is next door to where I resided, until July.
Around the same time that I stopped working with the aforementioned woman, I had a key worker who is a Spanish woman and she started off being really sweet. Hispanic ladies are attractive and I fell for her. However, I told a male worker I often played pool with that I talked about her online and he must have reported me. She knew I liked her and eventually, the way she behaved around me altered quite drastically, after being nice to start off with. Then she went and become rather nasty. We had also been in a GUM clinic together once, when I had an STI.
At first, during December, she appeared to be testing me, making me know she may go to South America one day and that "news" bothered me. She probably just said that to see how I would respond, as she knew by that point I fancied her and would have been watching me closely all the time she was around me, but I was oblivious to the fact she already knew I had an infatuation with her. She said to me once at a party in a venue called Number 6 I go to a lot, she was seeing a 'male friend' in town afterwards, which made me feel depressed, then just days later, I called her 'petal' in a text message when she was due to support me, then she went nuts when we were on the bus coming home. When we were back at my flat, I felt agitated over the things she said, so I put my arm around her as she was cleaning my dishes and she freaked out, by overreacting.
Whenever we had shifts after this, she seemed either uncomfortable or she acted mean-spirited. She went up a hill with me on Boxing Day (26 December). When I was atop the hill, I had vertigo like feelings and she ordered me to wear my glasses or she was leaving. A few nights previously, she moved her bar stool away from me in the staff kitchen, making out she needed to stretch her legs, while giving me an odd glance.
Eventually, in early February, we had a seminal shift where we baked a cake and it was a good afternoon. It sadly wound up being our last ever shift together. For weeks after this shift, her bosses fobbed me off about her, like they did with the other woman, but they made out she was still my key worker, but that she was busy and that they needed to utilize her elsewhere. Blah. Blah. Blah.
By the time I found out the truth, I was hurt badly. Attempts to reach out to the two girls beginning with my former key worker always ended in epic failure. Eventually, I ended up arrested several days after I was at a charity band night in July. Then I broke my bail terms a few times by sending vulgar messages on Facebook and I was even arrested near to where one of the women lives. This resulted in me being remanded in prison until a hearing took place. When I was free, I ended up apologizing to them on Facebook thinking it was the decent thing to do, but I was ordered not to contact them and it caused more trouble. So then I later ended up remanded in jail again after my own mother set me up in the park opposite her house.
Since mid-September, I have been highly anxious and I feel angry, and I have had to reside with my parents. I may not go back to my flat until in December and the police took my laptop away, and I do not have a mobile phone that can play music. It is not a good set up at all and being unable to afford all these luxeries makes me even more depressed. If I require anything from my flat, someone else has to go there on my behalf. But it is annoying because it is my home and all my things are there.
When I got out of jail, I had to reactivate my benefits including my Disability Living Allowance and wound up in tons of debt. I just feel so awful these days. And I feel like I ought to be dead, because the boss of the organization will never give me a chance to make things right. They made a 'mountain of a molehill' just over some stupid text messages, then the latter events pretty much ruined my life. Now, I understand they were only my support workers, but they are special to me.
Please help!
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