20 Sep 2015, 5:14 pm
OK. I was a jackass and I sent some inappropriate emails, that I got justly punished for. It scared them and I should have known better, but I was really feeling very upset and it was my anger that made me do that.
I'm not a supporter of racism or sexual harassment against care providers, and yes, maybe I was viewing women as sex objects for a while. Guess the buggery with these cheap hookers and their tight arses was a bit too much fun. Sorry if that sounds crass. But I know I'm capable of loving a woman, for real. It is just that I cannot get a girlfriend because I am unsure of where to look for one.
All I wanted was a chance with these two support workers, to do better, but they no longer wanted to know me. It was not right that the staff belatedly confessed that the lying was wrong, considering how much I begged prior to being remanded in custody. Their excuses are also pretty lame and well thought out too. Once the court got involved and the court had my number, they made out it was too late, like it were all my fault, when it was just as much theirs.
Anyway, add up all the Internet crap and the crap with my ex, Laura, then tell me I don't have a right to be wary of deception. The fact that this autism agency went down the same road as them made me realize that no-one can be trusted in life. Sometimes, it takes a real stinger like this scenario you see before you to get that all important wake-up call.