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    When I was in court, they were talking about getting me guardianship. But I don't know if the pros will outweigh the cons. I'm not keen on having anything to do with court appointed personnel, as I fear they could be serving as a stool pigeon type. You have to remember that even if they seem nice and you feel you can open up to them, they are NOT in your life to be your best buddy. Part of me thinks I'll just be getting set up to fail again, as my will power sometimes isn't terribly strong, and my OCD and socially inept nature can be overkill. But not all support people are bad. It's just that I had major problems with them in the past. And while I have called the court to try to get the ball rolling on having this stupidity rectified somehow, the staff there aren't very clued up about how to mail out paperwork. They'll just say you need to print the forms from a site.

    Years ago, I was in this flat as a part of supported accommodation. The people in charge removed two women amid concerns I was gaining inappropriate feelings for this Spanish lady, who was my key worker within Autism Initiatives, and the other woman overreacted as well. The whole matter wasn't handled right, because they were removed in a relatively dirty way, and then the people in charge kept lying. However, I became agitated and didn't drop the pursuit of "trying to make them understand", or whatever my goal was. But they didn't want to know, and they acted so cold, and absolutely nothing like a carer for an autistic man should be like. Yet when I said this stuff on other forums about how they betrayed me and wrecked my life, their replies were not very friendly. Pretty darn arrogant, actually, so that just made me feel like crap all over again. The pigs are just as useless.

    Unfortunately, I just kept getting arrested over it, or screwed over, and they gave me these non-harassment orders, which should have ended by now. But years ago, I contacted them again, and they extended them over that breach. And then I got charged over other people too. It all feels like a horrible nightmare. Although I still say they provoked me on purpose, as I was minding my own business when it happened. And then of course, everything gets deferred for this report, and that reason, and it becomes a real drag, when it should be over right there and then. In the UK, this is referred to as being the red tape.

    Now I am faced with not being able to get jobs as an extra in movies, shot in Edinburgh. Not that they film many major movies in my city anyway. It's mostly just smaller scale productions, that are shown at festivals, or end up on Vimeo. And of course, the COVID-19 crisis has certainly put a wrench in the works in more ways than one. But these agencies make it you have to upload official DBS evidence to your registered profile, so I reckon I'll be declined each time. And the few times I landed a bit part in something, that was either through messaging someone on Facebook, or I donated, so you can gain a perk through that. But the last thing I was in was nearly 2 years ago. And according to the director, he shot little of his short film before the pandemic started. So all of this is incredibly frustrating.

    But the trolls will just say, "It's down the middle, not across the wrist, and use a chainsaw. Or you'll survive if they find you".

    It's nuts that we have people like that in our society, who find entertainment in knowing others are legitimately suffering.
    Last edited by The Scottish Pedro; 09-12-2021 at 09:43 PM. Reason: Sorry; I put the same word twice in the post.

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    You certainly don't communicate like someone that needs appointing a guardian whom has the legal authority to care for one's personal and property interests. If in fact that is what you mean by guardian? That said, I understand how the ability to articulate does not account for invisible impairments that can indeed be considered a disorder when it comes to functioning in a disorderly world. I completely understand your apprehension with legal representation in the courts. The language is designed to disable those appearing whilst allowing for all kinds of bantering between those who've either spent or owe a fortune in learning how to speak. The connection between client and representation has very little to do with the content but everything to do with the hierarchal structure of both individuals and proceedings as well as one's career. This being more about the wigs, suits and most everything else external with little regard for that which we like to think makes us human. Everyone in between is just complacent within the machine. It's not the kind of workforce where you find people in it because they have other people's be interest at heart. Ironic as that may seem in such a pinnacle of community service. Speaking of which, sadly I see this mechanism entrenched within the disability sector with likewise legal constraints. It makes me wonder about the type and qualtiy of guardianship services that are regularly enacted. It can be used more as a control ploy just as psychotherapy/medication can be forced as a means to an end when it may very well not of been appropriate, but more so as a point to be latter used in a court of law or just to save face where one's career is more important.

    I remember you talking about the events within the supported accommodation long ago or at least a string of events very similar about two female staff members and thus the ongoing struggles as your outlining now.

    Generally people who get to a stage where they warrant legal guardianship, have their level of impairment used as a defense having been charged with whatever, in order to have such charges dismissed. Is this like something of what's going on in your case where the response of guardianship has come up due to the way and level your impairments have been brought up? In this light, such a response can be quite challenging on many fronts. I'd say this challenge looks at the cycle of the charges (reoffending context from prosecutors view) Vs the validity to personal accountability in terms of defendant's ability having been used as a defense by highlighting one's disability?

    Don't get me wrong here as I am not implying your in the wrong or propose to know what is going on when clearly I now jack about your case, but I do now how representation works with my first paragraph being what it is. As defendants we know well in our own minds what has and is going on but that content means nothing in a court room with such drones all playing along. My mussing's on this are more like queries and reasonings as to what could be going on with what I have read in here and what comes to mind as I remember your previous posts. The guardianship is not something I would want until I am handed over into the care of the state that being an aged care home. Even then I would prefer to be dead. It's a hard one to fathom to be sure. Sadly some people do not get a choice and in such cases it's a serious thing to be that far gone. BUT - not everyone is as far gone or impaired as one may think when it comes to individuals who've been appointed guardianship and in some rare cases it is very much for the benefit of client, patient, citizen or whatever one wishes to call them. Generally I think such individuals are more at risk in this part of the system as it is constantly under scrutiny for its negligence. Sadly nothing of consequence is done as the issue is a runaway train in a world now bursting at the seems.

    Yea - the world is nuts and many people are like that and they will not lose any sleep being that way. Those high in prestige basking in their success are the first ones to turn up their noses when dealing with people they do not understand but more so people they see beneath them. That hierarchal structure that is so limiting and binding within the courts is the same process in which people are conditioned to act outside it. Status being high on that list with fear leading the way when it comes to everyone on all levels seeking to fulfill their wants which they are taught is their right/s. I'm in that category that stumbles with such a complex web because I am too busy just being simple when it comes to such complex ways of being. Not a part of the game that I was even cut out for. I can only just imagine how much more toxic this way of being is in the movie industry. Is it any wonder that most famous actors and producers are all insane. Not that it makes up for the inhuman practices. Ponders how many narratives propose that section of society pulls the strings of those being voted for. Those be psychopaths emplaced under the pretense that they were voted in by a community of insane peoples. What a world to be living in!

    Righto - sorry Pedro. I guess this ended up being my morning post. Glad to be talking to someone other than myself. I don't know man ... just saying is all. If I have missed the mark my apologies. I've tried to relate where I can.

    Peace Bro.
    Last edited by Ponder; 09-12-2021 at 03:33 PM. Reason: My brain is scrambled and it helps me & others understand what I just wrote. Often takes several goes & an hour to finish.

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    I think the idea is they want to help me, but I don't think it will be flexible support like from years ago. It will probably just be a key worker kind of person who can maybe do more to speed things up, just because they're court appointed.

    That's something I miss, as I had something like 9 hours of support a week from what I remember. Back then, I could use the shifts however way I wanted. Obviously within reason. I'd go play pool or snooker. Or I could chat about music, what movies I enjoy, and you know what I mean. It made me feel like I was at least a part of something. So it's a pity all of that BS had to happen, but it is what it is.

    They probably did away with flexible support anyway. I have no idea. There's been a lot of funding cuts, and it's not nice. And I don't even attend this place named Number 6 any more, so I couldn't say if things have changed. They did not ever ban me from going there, but it's rather embarrassing to know a lot of staff and service users know about what went on. Also, they only allow so many people in there because of the policy on social distancing.

    One thing I am inclined to hate is that if you go to your GP and talk about what happened, or say you are struggling because of everything that has happened and would like additional help or something in writing even, they won't refer you to anything or really say much at all, as I think that's kind of deliberate. They won't be totally mute, but you can sort of tell they have nothing to reply back with. Since they know about my legal issues, and likely have information stored on their system detailing aspects of this, they'd try not to appear to be co-signing with me. It's really shite though, as sometimes you feel like you have nowhere to turn to. Those advocacy workers aren't much better, as they're also cautious.

    Like I've been saying, message boards have run their course. Video game forums are not always a friendly online environment, as people are often shills so that these companies offer them early access copies (or what is known as review codes). Maybe if you need advice on how to fix up a car or something, then a select few of these forums can be good for learning new skills. But any other types of forums are usually populated by colossal morons, spouting absolute shite for the hell of it.

    I was hoping to do something in terms of getting the non-harassment orders removed, but one cannot make it sound like you're threatening the court with demands. But the garbage with Sara and Joanna just needs to exit my life. I wouldn't want a new helper and I start to flip my lid because I have all of this preventing me from doing certain work. But it's not just that. If you try to gain a social life and people find out you have skeletons in the closet, they may not understand that what went on was not necessarily my fault. You often shouldn't be too honest. I'm even quite honest on the Internet, but it's not always safe.

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    Thanks for opening up. Good read. I'm seeing clearer now. I get 10 hours a week cut back from 17 with some additional support to assist me whilst away from the family twice a year. I guess regarding the court, I would see that more as a court appointed referral. One would think where the service is more accountable. I know what it is like changing staff and not really a service where that can be done lightly. Totally understand about that. I've been though many agencies and workers for many reasons on both sides of the coin. I've found myself at one time moving or another requesting another worker simply knowing it would be for the better. Sure it's hard to get back into routine, but if the process to keep one's self in familiar territory impacts mental health, then eventually something must give one way or the other. Not so easy to gauge for others but being flexible as scary as it seems can in the end be a really great thing.

    There has been a big shift over here in the way supports have been rolled out. It's was hard enough being assimilated whilst existing supports where absorbed into a new way of delegating that for the most part has seen most people that were clinging to a net slip on through with now next to no support for those predisposed/long time unemployed and what not. That's another story. Hard for me to stay on track. Political changes that I have talked about before in terms of centralization are seeing communities less connected in humans services. This relates to the GPs role who is overused but at the same time ill-equipped to make expected calls. This fits well to stem the tide lest a flood gate of people end up utilizing campaigned services that led to votes. An impact statement regarding the effect whatever period/events that has had or having on your mental well being is far best coming from a phycologist in the form of a support letter. Is that what you mean? GPs can't write those letters because you need to build of a rapport over time with the required professional and even then they might have to refer you on depending on the case you wish to build. ... and it is like just like that ... running around and seeing all these health care professionals for said purposes is in fact building a case.

    Try to forget about a GP passing judgement because of what they might or might no know about your case Are seeing them under your own steam without a trust? All these support workers, doctors and therapists and whatever are there to serve us. We are not there to serve them. Sadly the way people talk about them show just how much power we give away just in the way we are taught to think.

    Re-educate on your goals is what I often have to do and at times some of my supports remind me by taking out all that anxiety and worry about what ifs, others peoples perceptions and all that. All of a sudden I understand its like X,Y & Z. If you learn a little more then you can object more clearly when others are playing cards that don't relate. In this case it might be more the case of helping those serving to be dealt the right cards in the first place.

    STEP ONE TO GET A SUPPORT LETTER GOING THROUGH A GP (This will take time as is part of building a plan)
    My suggestion is if you don't already know of any subsidy plans re funding for a psychologist, is to ask if the doctor knows of any welfare schemes that you can use to request a mental health plan specifically to see a psychologist. If your not in America there is a good chance your country has this.

    Step one to see a psychologist over a GP re the writing of an impact statement re mental health is simply because it's not the job of a GP to do in the first place. I'm just stating a fact is all. Unless there is more to the story regarding your rights as an individual who can make sessions for themselves there is zero reason why a GP in your situation would not refer you on with such a plan. GPs for all the good they can be are in fact just another link in the chain where step 2 might have to lead to step 3 and so on. The same way it's good to keep the same supports, so too it is with doctors, therapists and so on.

    Step 2 is just working with the therapist and taking the time it often takes to navigate the maze and hopefully in that journey one can make the most with said services for the right reasons. The problem is not so much just based on clients not ready or unwilling but also with a system that invalidates reports according to how they wish to stem the tide which goes back to the reliance on GPS without knowing how the current dynamics work with constant changes in the system. This includes the possibility in having to see more educated people whose had their credentials upscaled and so on. Generally speaking a support letter re impact is good enough coming from a registered psychologist.
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    My experience with courts is to let charges run their course. I consider them and those that invest in them to be a joke. Keep fighting if you think you can handle it, but my advise in this is to let it go in much the same way I would any support agency and their delegated staff, GP, therapist, physiatrist and so on. Much better to make a formal complaint that does not focus on getting blood from a stone. Sometimes that complaint can do good for others but moreover be a good source for letting go and moving on.

    People are people Pedro ... but ultimately we have to learn to live with ourselves. As far as being honest goes - YEP know that one too. Yet I have to admit out of all my frustrations with deceit, nothing is worse than when I do that to myself. Point and case is that all this focus on community interaction ... and especially on the industrial belt upon which you and I sit ... that it is designed to keep us from ourselves. The more they push that agenda the more I care less for it.

    To be sure it's nice to socialize and your points about doing it online are valid to me. Yet community facilities and the people in them are just as digitized with the same wants and desires online.

    I know what it's like to run out of options but I also have learned that I don't need others in order to find a tiny spark. That has been my secret to keep breathing as well as keep reaching out.

    When there is nothing left ... that's a great place to begin all over again. Good way to keep going when you got nothing. The little things take on new meaning and all that other shite no longer matters.

    Here's to moving on regardless of what comes.

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    My solicitor should inform me of holiday dates. When I was in court the last time, he wasn't there.

    I called him recently, and he acted kind of strange, as if he didn't know about what occurred.

 

 

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