Originally Posted by
Ponder
Alas - I have an awesome bright spark in my grandson as it turns out and the connection I have with him is more than enough to keep me engine turning. I've been rutted and struggling with the whole self that is missing out on things that my few friends could never imagine going without. Hell, even my phycologist the other day brought this all out of me and basically hung his shoulders lower than mine saying "Dave, I never knew..." He means well and he was not twisting my elbow or anything. This last week fighting off whatever virus has left me feeling pretty low and he was just trying to help. Now he has learned another facet about me as too maybe some others in here and how I process living like so.