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  1. #51
    Read every word, Ponder.

    I hope it helped you in some way to get all that out at least.

    Just hope you bounce back soon and recover and get some sleep. Optimistic outlook or otherwise (realistic).. here for you

    ~Sal
    I'd rather be a 'could-be' if I cannot be an 'are' because a 'could-be' is a 'maybe' who is reaching for a star. I'd rather be a 'has-been' than a 'might-have-been' by far; for a 'might-have-been' has never been, but a 'has' was once an 'are.

    -Milton_Berle

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    It certainly did Sal. Thanks for the kind words and really appreciated being accepted as is.

    Still have a tickle in my throat that is more about about coughing tonight. Bit of a chesty cough at that. Heading off to bed now hoping I get some better sleep.

    GOOD NEWS - we MIGHT ... mabey ... might have finally found a more appropriate house to move into. We have been pre-approved before having seen the house. Tomorrow morning we have a look and decide if we want to move on in.

    Thanks again Sal - Hope this finds you well.

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    Righto! Time to bounce back. Still recovering from the flu like symptoms minus the fever but feeling like it is time to start moving once again. I did put on all weight that I lost but that is OK! I know this move will soon put me back on track in regards to that. Lots to do and lots to plan. I knew if I unpacked my treadmill we would get accepted for a place. No I will pack that back up as well as disassemble the huge tramp out the back. My hope is once the little guy sees me taking down his prime means of regulatory that he will better process the beginning of our next move. He and I can find other ways to process without the tramp and treadmill. He can help with some boxing to be sure. It's all about being inclusive as I have said many times before.

    Back on the coffee but that OK too!

    Just kidding ... whatever it takes to get rolling again.

    We have dealt with the power transfer dates as well an internet connectivity. The latter always a trigger. lol That said, mobile connectivity is great these days. Even if it is frying my brain.

    OK enough with the jokes. On a more serious note driving the truck is not something I am looking forward to. That damn road rage incident still lingers in me when I am on the road in a smaller car let alone a truck. As far as getting a removalist to help - No chance of that. Unless you can afford the high price for those that show respect when handling people and their stuff, you just end up with the type similar to the guy that attacked me. I will always move myself until I brake my back. We have decided to pay two weeks at one place and the other for the overlap. Much easier that way. I'll hire a truck for 48 hours and have all the boxes and furniture position on the ready for the to and fro. Age is a bitch but I can still do it despite the shoulder still on the mend. Thank goodness I still have a strong back.

    No time to feel sorry for myself now. I am thankful that I will be able to get a couple of hours here and there from my support worker who I will time with the huge upside down fridge. Gotta love those upside down fridges hey. Kind of makes me think who came up with the stupid idea of bending down so low to grab everyday items vs not. Damn thing is heavy though for a modern fridge. When eating healthy I need a fridge like a walk in wardrobe. hahaha ... is true though.

    OK - Yummy coffee almost gone now. I best prep the house for the cleaner. I usually rinse, pick things up and sort out the clothes pile and prep the way for her. That way they can do more and a better job. The whole concept with that support means I do a lot more than I otherwise would. That kind of support I feel most people in do not understand. Instead they despise me for having it whilst trapped in their perception of work and what other people owe them. Me ... I learn how to make the most of what's on offer and if I can't get support I will just do what it takes to achieve what it is that I feel I need to do ... not what others tell me I should. This is were opinions split and divide as those who have less repel in feeling they should have more and those whom are not happy in their role think others should have less and struggle more. Bitch of a world ... but fuck it ... I only focus on those who are prepared to help. Lest I find a way to do what needs doing myself. My wife can't help like she used to when it comes to lifting - but she is amazing with all the other things I would be so useless at. I will miss her dearly if she goes first.

    What's Next - set the stage did I? Hmmmm Finally a house with more space:
    Although there are always people doing it far worse than us. We decided to give our daughter the Master Bedroom with the Ensuite. She even gets air conditioning. I do not! But that is OK - I am really stokes that my daughter will finally get some much needed breathing room. I have this curse that when any of my kids suffer it feels like a knife in my chest. I don't know how to describe it but it really hurts like that.

    I sam going on again ... srry guys.

    That's a wrap.

    Take care and have a good day. On the mend now.

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    Getting in the Groove for Whatever Comes Today:





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    Just a little bit of my own pre-programming before I do more packing. I have to admit despite my frustration with it all, I've still been dabbling on Youtube again. Not the muso links, but they too have been fun and rewarding. Just trying to create my own relgion before giving my sales pitch.


    I'm in the process of writing a book the will be released in our next life.

    Your Savior Coming Soon:


    Just kidding. Or at least I think I am. The internet is such an adventurous place... at the moment. At least for now. Move are constantly being made in Australia to control it. I will just ride with the tunes above and see what comes. I've been getting into didgeridoo vibes of late. Seems to of accelerated my healing and energy levels .. although could just as easily be the coffee as I am caffeine sensitive. Speaking of which I'll have to get back on the straight and narrow come tomorrow.

    I see the masses can't make up thier minds with reports of hundreds and thousand of people dying in America and then all those gatherings like chooks penned up in a mass factory. Makes about as much sense as the internet. Go Figure. Bit like that way here too although the numbers nowhere near as reported in other places. One minute is lockdown, then next its opening borders back up to keep the economics happy. Open / Close - Open - Close and so on.

    I guess it's tough planning the next mass control stratagem with so many people in the world.

    Woops ... Seems I am plagued with attachments this morning. Must of been something to do with my lucid dreaming last night. Sigh.

    I best do some more meditations.

    Later Guys.

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    Hey Sal - Enthydr - If you guys don't mind guitar I share with you a famous Australian Guitarist known as Tommy Emmanuel. I have a signed instructional book of his somewhere ... actually come to think of it I have misplaced it during one of many moves.

    Anyways - give him a little time to warm up. He goes through a few different renditions from about half way on and up. Only 5 minutes worth but nice and juicy:



    I link one of the songs in the above. A full version where you can see him digging deep. I got about half way through it then gave up. I was only using like Tab Edit with a more basic version but it sounded pretty awesome whilst I could remember what my right and left hand were doing. I'm a finger picker myself when ever I play and like very much Tommy's Base over Lyrical style with drum tapping and the lot. That first video pretty much sums up how he can make a guitar sound like 3 or 4 playing different tunes together and the last link a song I tried to master and one that got my attention when I first came across Tommy. He is getting on in age but if anything sounds like his gett better like his solid top guitar no doubt. I can play nothing like tommy but he is my inspiration when it comes to guitar.

    Daytripper / Lady Madonna (The Beatles) | Songs | Tommy Emmanuel

    Other than that - I also like fingerpicking classical. I find classical gas and link that one. A little different to what I meant but sounds pretty awesome too.


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    Found IT! I thought this was a funny one as the guy introducing him seems to be smitten with Tommy. LOL ... hope you like this one too. Leave you guys to it.



    PEACE

    Edit - I swear (re the ending of this video) I don't know why all the Jesus stuff is getting into my posts. GEEZUS Man????????
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    OK - Time to pick up my Brothers Guitar and start Practicing. RIP Bro. It's been over 6 years now since his death. I think I can pick it up now. This next rendition nailed it for me. Harmonics I absolutely love, although only able to do very very basic stuff. I know I will never ever be this good, but I do like messing around on the guitar with stuff I can at least remember akin to a meditative riff. Over and over and over ... and over again. If your prone to nozning out on OCD kind of stuff then finger picking with a few learning materials can be fun. I just have not been able to pick up my Bros guitar because these instruments are really an extension of players and I know my bro loved his very much. He also respected my ability and was reason he picked it up. I think it's time to get back into it. I make no promises but just to meditate and learn only a couple of tunes that might see me out for a couple more years. If I am content with my ability in the months ahead, I might even aim to pick myself up a Tommy Styled Martin for more inspiration.

    Sorry to of spammed a couple of posts - This was the one that make me bite and unpack my Bros guitar. Of to find some hard to get tommy tab.


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    Actually decides to put the guitar back down and continue simply being a listener.

    Reinhardt digs deep in this next one and seems completely unaffected by those around him. Good way to be!



    I'm still perplexed at the God content woven into many of the attractions I have been drawn to of late, but only make note of it given my well known loss of faith and trust when it comes to that side of mainstream conditioning. I think it's obvious that which perplexes me is not the case for these individuals as they do their thing. Quite the opposite it seems.

    Having a hard time with chatter in your head?
    Awakening from Self-Talk All little stories in the head with their own little identities that put exclamation marks on the end! Oh I am suffering! - Can't be giving that shit up now! Poor Me!

    ... and laughing at it really aint all that bad. At first when you hear others laugh you might take offense as I once did but you soon realise they are not really talking about you. More directed towards that ego that so many feel they need to defend.
    Here's a good one on Laughing: Although I suggest going on a long slow walk to listen to this one.

    Righto - time to pack up my bedroom.

 

 

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