SIGH and WOW - I really don't know what to say about that. I should ask Forest Gump lol I could learn a thing or two from him. I seem to be just getting worse. I see what I can do. Anyways - I think that email was for the best. I've been called a stage show before - but what you see is what you get. It is what it is. I'm done holding it all in. This world has not time for anyone. It's all the same pace for everyone when it comes to the medical toxic ways of rushing things. There really seems no way of avoiding it though. I'm going to have to put in place better practices when attending such things. All the hustle and bustle, noises, sings, instructions are enough to contend wit for me ... but the way people deal with others is just plain disgusting the way they do. It's hard enough at the fast food drive through, but to see the same mentally in a medical center ...
This is why I no longer want to be a part of the human species and or this existence. Sad to say - somehow I have to change the way I feel about that. I don't want my grandson picking up on that. At least I am aware of it and want to do something about this way of feeling. Right now there is a LOT of low vibes going on everywhere in the world and its very much residual. I have plans ... but for now ... with the torn ligament in my shoulder still plaguing me, the COVID19 WTFE - tomorrow we have another family court hearing over the phone ... it just keeps coming.
I really do think its part of some BS agreement before I was born - but let's leave that tin foil topic for another time. I best start relaxing as best I can to get some sleep ... maybe tomorrow my bitten tongue will start to heal. rofl ... fuck it ... you goto laugh in times like these.
Goodnight! Zzzz