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  1. #101
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    Trip to the cemetery with my grandson: He says poppy lives to infinity and Nanna lives to 200. I said I don't want to live to infinity. We spent most of the time doing math going from grave to grave - trying not to walk over the less obvious ones. It was a good trip - we also said hi to a few kangaroos. Excuse the MEME ... we had a more gentler discussion. I'll leave the brow beating to the doctor above. Does not work for me.




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    Dram drama - we'll have to visit again soon. It was certainly an enlightening experience. Well what else has been happening? I got a few upgrades for my scooter. Still waiting on my ultralight hiking chair to get repaired. I sent it in just before the corona virus hit and now it looks like a got a lengthy weight. In fact I just broke away mid this post to email and politely request my chair back as it due to the special relationship I have with it. The frame only needed to be re-corded. The chair still works fine. In fact they are possible the best ultralight chairs in the world for what they are. Apparently their staffing is having issues re the corona virus. I sent it in just before things got worse.

    Anyways - I can't wait to get my chair back whether it's re-corded on not. The only other thing to do is get myself setup with a GoPro camera that I have been planning on doing for years. First the idea was to video a couple of bike rides. Since I got my electric scooter, I figure it would be really cool to record some of those trips.

    Boy oh boy ... ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz really feeling it tonight.

    Night folks ... stay safe! Good luck but do what you can do.

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    Well I got that GoPro I was pondering about. I asked my wife what she thought about the little clip I put together and have to agree, these little videos I make from time to time of the little fella a really hard to watch. We are so afraid that we might lose him to an ongoing court case that's been in the works for nearly six years now. It really has taken it's toll on us but not so much as to affect the intricacies of ensuring the little guy gets the help he needs. Despite having a very strong case, you just don't know with the courts. Anyways - I try not to think about it too much. He is a very special kid. Not just because of his lables but more so because of the sweet innocence that takes much longer to corrupt with autistic kids. There is a bliss to be had in being slow to catch on to the toxic way of our current evolution.

    I watch this despite the fear because we both have a good time unwinding doing this kind of thing. His laughter is genuine. I still hug and cuddle him like he is 3. I could care less about those who use terms like helicopter parenting. That plays well into that toxic evolution I just mentioned. It's sad that many of today's parents are embarrassed of autistic kids. It helps to drop turn the camera away from your own face and focus it on something else.

    Anyways - This was a feel good clip. I leave that feeling ride for a bit.


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    Praise be to Coronavirus! Personally, I don't think we have been impacted enough to make the so called difference; evolutionary step.

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    Calm Radio. Have you heard of it? I ended up subscribing. I came across it whilst out riding my scooter listening to Tune In Radio. I was constantly getting adds about CALM RADIO and whilst I have tuned myself out of listening to add - the calm nature of that advert finally had me go check out calmradio.com

    I decided to mess about with a new video. Ended up recording my desktop audio for better sound, but will no doubt end up with a copyright infringement. Sigh - It really sucks how you cant just share snippets of the world these days. Hell, I have had copyright infringements just for a radio in the background. It's frigging ridiculous. Finally I don't have to make playlists. Some of the channels are good enough to just listen to four hours at a time. I can tell you since busting my shoulder with my recent scooter accident, that the calm radio app has defiantly slowed me down. I'm out longer and enjoying the scenery much more. A lot of guys into electric scooters do seemingly get caught up in the speed riding with full face helmets. OH YEA ...

    My ultralight hiking chair has been fixed and will be out their door hopefully tomorrow and delivered in 8 to 10 days thereafter. Whilst I don't mind sitting on my scooter, leaning back in my dedicated chair at a few choice spots with calm radio playing will be just what I need. I know some good spots out of sight where out now self policing society will be less likely to see me doing my anti social thing. Truth is I have been social distancing for decades now. The only thing is though, I do require the ability to access small pockets of nature with *&%$ all people in it.

    Cognitive wise I am still declining ... but that's OK ... It's hard dealing with people that inadvertently trigger me .. or don't realise just how difficult it is for me to understand fast pace talk with new instructions. People behind that counters don't realise just how robotic they have become. I'm so lucky to have support with I have important appointments. ATM I have an exemption re being outside with support workers. This whole thing about STAY THE FUCK @ HOME re the corona control thing is getting quite oppressive. I feel like when they pull out the temperature gauges without even explaining what they are doing, it's like they are pulling out a gun and pointing it at my head. So many sheep all lining up and then you get those you could not give to &^%#s. That kind of conflict really confuses me. I've seen people like those that have been going on Corona Holidays due to no work ... similarly just blatantly breaking laws. More loud music than usual, hoons racing up and down the street, people walking around with dogs off leash not giving a *&^% about their dogs licking other passer bys. SIGH ...

    How to switch off to all that? That's the part of walking that I hate, despite walking being the best medicine of all. Is good I got my pushbike working again. I need a good medium between my scooting and walking. I'be put on a lot of weight but all things considered, I'm not going to beat myself up.

    You know something ... I really miss not knowing stuff. Like I don't know shit really - but just saying is all. Miss the passion of wonder kind of thing. This world really is spent when it comes to finding things of worth. yadda yadda ... Of course world view really does come down to perspective. Number one reason I am so misunderstood. The whole classes/status thing only serves to compound that issue as well. In fact the latter facet is typically the straw that breaks the camels back to those that would otherwise identify.

    Video still encoding ... I link that later on.

    Wish I could be more upbeat. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Don't like being down but then again, the fire in me just seems to be dying down naturally.

    Night Night.

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    It will be 2am before I sleep. All good - Learning new things takes me longer these days. Many changed to my routine as well affects me like so. Anyways - Here's my laid back review on Calm Radio. Hopefully the fresh bedding I put on will help me sleep like a baby + some of the nature sounds from calm radio. I try again ... night night.
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    So - to follow up on another post I threw together in a scooter forum. I basically came up with the following image that accounts for all my record keeping over 21 Charge Cycles of my scooters battery. The last thing I want to happen whilst I am many kilometers from home is to have to do the scooter walk of shame. LOL - Whilst I could kick scoot on it, mine is up high being on off road scooter, so it's not really that ergonomic for doing so. I would feel like a clown having to do that. Whilst 21 charge cycles divided by the ODO (955KM) comes in under my 60KM average ... not all my charge cycles were full charges. A number of them were only top ups. I also had sessions where I was speed testing (including my accident!!!) and do a lot intense hill climbs.

    That said - I am pretty confident now that based on a full charge cycle gong from 68V down to 52V I can whilst in the variables as outline in the following image do a max of 60+ km ... and when not wishing to fully deplete but leave a little in the tank when charging (which is the recommended method [bar one fully drained session every 20 - 30 cycles) I will on average get between 55 to 60km which is fine by me. You never beleive the stats given on the web sites. The stats for mine is 100km to 110km based on a maximum of 70kg on perfectly flat road with now stopping, wind and on so. Not real world stats. At anyrate .. this is how I have thus far avoided the walk of shame. TOUCH WOOD! I am sure that manufacturers will soon release smart gauges. That said, there as many variables with electric transports.

    A summery of my records based on the above and following stats:

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    Enough said ...

    Last edited by Ponder; 04-09-2020 at 05:31 AM.

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    The news on my shoulder is not good. I have a 3rd degree torn ligament in my shoulder. Something about the scapular and clavicle. I don't remember the details other than its already been 5 weeks and things are not looking good. I think this one is going to need surgery. I can still move around, I'm just in mild pain and then severe whenever I try and lift anything. The comfort eating has gotten out of hand. I really need to get a grip. Not being able to exercise as I normally do to keep myself regulated is starting to get to me. The trouble is I tend to push through things which I should probably not ... however I do need to keep moving. I think I will have to start using the mini tramp more than anything else.

    Yadda yadda ... the media is pumping out more fear than ever before with all kinds of threats for people leaving their homes. I think walking around the block or even riding a bike is still aloud. I'll be gently going on my scooter as pushing down on my bicycle adds too much weight on my shoulder compared to just standing up. That said, I'll probably get arrested having to explain to the power monger cops how I rate an electric scooter as out and about head space exercise. This world gets more oppressive by the minute.

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    Despite the shoulder, I really need to do something about this weight gain. It's a combination of the pain, resultant comfort eating and this damn depression re Isolation and a world going insane. Half my problem these days with exercise is remembering the moves so I came up with the following after ripping a youtube video. I'll just have to go gently into the night on this one. Boune nice and slow. Tuesday after the Easter break I will contact private specialist to set up appointment and get a quote. Seems my mother might come to the rescue again. If not - I'll have to wait a long time I suppose - BUT living a sedentary life is going to kill me. I am very luck I bought myself a high end mini tramp when I did. It's really good for just bouncing on softly before bed let alone using to go full pelt.


    Whatever works ...right?

 

 

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