Ready to give up on life: The lived experience of elderly people who feel life is completed and no longer worth living -
I found that to be an interesting article. Much of it really connected with me. I have been able to reason that from a spiritual perspective much of the suffering could be lessened to some degree by acceptance and letting go of societal ideology. That said, much of the proposed aching loneliness experienced and expressed within the article is something I think quite relevant to a very large proportion of society and not just relegated to the old. (epidemic and reflective of our sick society) Of course that is not to take away from the main theme of the article which in this case directly relates to those over 70 and have simply had enough from their own perspectives.
It takes a long time to learn that everything in this world ends in failure. Still though, so many battle against this very fact. Acceptance seems the only option. So soooo much in that act to be sure. Hence a long time to work that one out. In this sense depression has much to offer, whilst those who are busily going about their busy-ness trying to be more than what they already are, will in deed, ache in much the same way towards their end or in my perspective and context, well before their ends.
I just sit with that for a while. ... Nature is helping me a little. I've been spending a hell of a lot less time on this and way more walking bare foot on the grass taking in the sun as sensibly as I can all with an open heart to feel whatever relief comes. That really can't be expressed other than being in deep pain for one's self with a yearning to feel the sun. I guess despite the wishful ideations of no longer living, I know I must go for my grandson and even then ... even if we were to lose the battle to keep him, we must still go on and be there for him. That struggle alone is full of so many dynamics in which the learning curve to this cruel reality, must be experienced if I am ever to find peace. I'm beginning to see how avoiding these cycles just leads to more of the same thing, within this life - let alone the drama of coming back for another go. None of these thing anyone likes. This is why so many people spend their time running/being distracted.
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Tomorrow that bandage comes off. Day ten since shoulder operation. I have about a 12 month period to 'full' recovery with the possibility with limited range of motion. I am in no rush whatsoever. It's actually turned out to be a good thing. Pain still persists and have a long way to go.
Night night ..................