Come back Self!! Are you trapped under another goat?
I've got a dental abscess I think. Did I already say that? I've been knocked out on oxycodone.. Haven't had it in over a year and got no tolerance. At one stage I could function on 80mg. Now I'm on the nod after 10mg. Got antibiotics as well - I did a telehealth call with my GP and it was so easy. He faxed the scripts through to the chemist and I picked them up. I gotta admit, I'm loving the virus in some ways. Unfortunately I can't get the damn tooth pulled or root-cannalled over the phone.
All these infections are related to diabetes. It lowers immunity and makes the body more prone to infection. I've been taking my temperature through all this (the ear and the tooth) and it hasn't risen above normal once, so my immunity must still be pretty good. I can't get the diabetes under control though using the insulin needle system. I have a weird type (a combination of 1 & 2) and the doctors just don't understand it. So I'm looking at insulin pumps, which are like a mechanical pancreas and cost a fortune, but which I discovered are much cheaper overseas.. Including the UK (where I have relatives and my dad has bank accounts).
Other than that, my mother is staging some sort of grand finalé to her lifelong ridiculous behaviour. I can't go into details here because it will just make me angry. She's 78yo and has got herself in a situation that rivals even my worst in my 20s or 30s.
Despite this physical and emotional fuckery, I'm feeling pretty optimistic. I want to visit my daughter in June. She's doing well and has some supervisory job in a supermarket. She started as a checkout chick last year and they were impressed by her so she got promoted. With the whole Coronavirus thing she's actually in a good position career-wise. She's also got an inheritance sitting in the bank, which she's decided to use as part of a deposit on a house. I'm proud of her! Not in the way parents always say they're proud of their kids -- genuinely proud. We get along well too, so I like to think I've broken the cycle of emotional abuse I experienced with my mother.
That is all for now I think