Hi guys, I'm not sure how active this forum is anymore, but hopefully someone can help me with this. Last time I posted which was a couple years ago now, it was about my OCD. I actually found out through this forum what it was too. So, I'm basically aware of my breathing and constantly controlling it instead of just letting it be natural. The fear was I'd be aware forever, but I eventually got over it by telling myself it was just a thought and the the fear wore off. I also had work to help occupy me, but I was made redundant some time ago and my anxiety spiked recently, and this type of OCD has come back too, but this time I'm really struggling with it, I get to scared to talk incase I can't breath properly, I can't focus on things, I just feel hopeless lately. I'm currently on the waiting list for therapy and my Dr prescribed me Fluoxetine, which I'm too scared to take, I've just always been too scared to take any medication and always tried to overcome my anxiety without it, but this time I dont feel like I can. I'm just terrified I'm going to lose my mind, I dont think I've ever been this bad.