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    Thumbs down Has anyone been on bluelight.org?

    In every post I make, they just post off topic nonsense. The site is apparently aimed at heavy drug users. It's probably not a good site to gain advice from either.

    https://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads...ey-worker-Sara
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    Hi Pedro. sorry your having a hard time finding a place more suited to your liking. I've been looking for quite some time and in most cases just come back here and keep in touch with my 'UK-AF' friends. I don't need the number people look for on say FB. I actully have better connections in here than in there.

    I took time out to checked the link you provided. Everyone's view point will undoubtedly be different. For the most part I personally have no probs with how the OP is expressing. We should all be given the opportunity to say things as we feel fit. Some of the responses can sound heartless but then people are generally apathetic these days as the world continues to regress. I had a bit of a flick through the main forum index and skimmed a few posts and found the site not too bad on moderation. Just my opinion of course. Not too many power trippers. However the side effect with not having moderators 'add to the discussion' as a means of moderation, results in a lot of online abuse as the trade off to freedom of speech. This abuse not unlike in dysfunctional families. This being why I typically stay away from what I term as overly populated main stream mental health forums. I guess it would be the same here if we had too many active users and no one to add to the discussion in a way to keep ourselves and others grounded.

    Re getting drug advice online. Totally agree that is not a good idea. Especially in places with dysfunction. Yet, I think is OK to share experiences. People just have to educate themselves on how to discern and how to effectively use such information. In this regard anxiety leads to unwise decisions and also distorted information. The latter being why in the end we should only rely on our own experiences. This even applies to when seeking professional advice. No doubt a better option to begin with Vs trolling unstable mental health forums. Once you work out how to navigate like so, it can then be possible to extract a couple of nugget of gold from even the most toxic of places. However you need a lot of insight and tolerance for that.

    Here is the home page of that site. Looks OK on the surface ... but not my kind of mental masturbation. I prefer to knock off in here instead. Create my own topics within my own threads. All that said, it would be nice to see more traffic coming through here. Possibly because those few of us here tend to talk about hard core truth ... this might put a lot of main-streamers off. I'm just guessing ... for now ... I and a few others seem content enough to make the most of it here.
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    Hey dude ... that game is out now hey. I am kicking myself I did not get it. It is still however on my wish list. I got 7 Days To Die instead. Hope you are doing well enough.

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    Unhappy

    I get the impression they are taken the piss...

    https://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads...eing-slandered

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    That's was my point about main stream forums

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    A lot of forums are like this online. Especially ones about games. I have started to use them less, and I may try to get more into live streaming. It is hard to do that too.

    I wish I could take my ex support people to court. I really think Sara and Joanna are not fit for being support workers. That company they worked for kind of sucks.
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    Hi Pedro. By 'this forum' ... I take it the one you mean in the one you linked? Then yes - I agree. This forum we are in, is barely active and quite unique as far as mental health forums go.

    Gaming forums. LOL. Blizzard Forums are the most toxic I have seen of all. Mostly talking about Diablo 3 in that regards, however I imagine its much the same with most gaming forums. That said, I have had good relations in Sims 2/3 and 4. Farm Simulator and Cities Skylines also being enjoyable experiences as well. I guess it goes to show that the more violent games attract negative people. Sounds feasible to me and has been my observations from much of my extensive experience. I say extensive as I started playing when the PC screens had glass and came out in green. Way before the internet hit the scene.

    Those gaming forums indeed make FB bullies look like Angels.

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    Yea man - Hard Core your story and how you feel about the support workers. I am genuinely srry you feel the way you do. I'm not going to even attempt to make excuses for them.

    I think you once said in another post that your now unable to receive support? Is that right?

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    Yes. That is pretty much the crack. And all because of a stupid crush on a Spanish woman, who never even knew anything about autism in the first place.

    I honestly think that they have blacklisted me. I called up the council and they ignored me. Eventually, my course of action was to send in a complaint. I was told the social worker I had was working in a different department. Yet I had not heard from him in like, forever.

    I cannot get a role as an extra in a short film now, because I get messages saying I was not selected. But it is a fact that people had been saying things behind my back before.

    So I got a call and a woman asked me what I needed support with. I said I would like support workers to help me attend social groups. But then she was talking about other things, not related to support. Honestly. I think they just do not want to help.

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    Not sure anyone can be black listed here in Australia from actually receiving a benefit or even a government service. Every one can apply and reapply several times under an appeals and review process no matter what they have done or what others think of them. I am an Xcon/Criminal (not hard to end up one in this world) and whilst mud does certainly stick with law enforcement and other agencies - when it comes to welfare rights as a basic human, all citizens have a right to apply, be review and also appeal. Now that said - the system does complicate matters for the purpose to reduce the likelihood that such claims do not come flooding in and thus kill the so called allocated budget. My point here is that a service provider can not hold a disability client's behavioral issue against them in a way that stops them from receiving government assistance. Sadly - unemployment is quite the opposite.

    I guess my question to you is - Do You Still Qualify For Assistance and or Has Your Funding For Assistance Been Cut?

    I am not sure how things work in the UK - although what I am hearing from my daughter who is about to go spend a couple of years over there - it's sounds dicey in a lot of areas. Having to pay up to 200 POUNDS simply to apply for a house? I am sure there is more to it, like you get your money back? If not FUCK THAT SHIT! What a fucked up country. Please explain that? The homeless or squalor of council housing must be massive with policies like that? I don't much like the word 'council' or care for how it operates - BUT - it sounds like you might have to research the shit out of it to find out your rights.

    I hate to say it man, but the whole movie thing is secondary to your current needs. Unless of course your doing OK without support? In that case you could just forget the whole support thing and just get on with life. We ALL tend to hand on to crap for the sake of having a good bitch and it's unhealthy at best. On the other hand if you feel you could benefit from ongoing support then:

    A: Do you still 'Qualify' for disability support? (Warrant it)

    B: IF So - What type of supports would they be?

    C: IF not - What are the technicalities stopping you from receiving it? (Black listing cannot be official - but yea I hear ya ... Service providers can do it off the books - Very Rare that they do it)

    If you feel No service provider wants to touch you, then and you still want support - then if in fact you still qualify for government assistance in this area, you could approach different service providers (This few that don't know you or just know you have been flagged as 'High Needs' [this might not even be the case] Just be open and transparent to the companies you approach. Take someone with you.

    If it were me and I had no one to help me - I would find some free charity workers. To find a free social worker, (In this Country) I would look to the Red Cross - st vincent de paul - Life Line - and so on. All thought I don't know where you live and what it's system is like, the easiest way to find free unbiased social workers is to start with the religious one's first. (Huge Irony - I know) - I much prefer the secular ones (although I some church related ones do surprise me from time to time.)

    Basically find yourself an unbiased social worker who can give you ideas on more supports from another approach regarding disability services - but more so for the context above for them to come with you or make contact with these other services that you think are seeing you as flagged.

    I guarantee if you explain your situation, acknowledge whatever, that you will eventually find a service will to take you.

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    Actually dude my support person just turned up - I got to go.

    If you want to further discuss ... no probs. Srry if I am reading you wrong or simply getting it wrong.

    Catch Up later.

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    I do not know why and how they can reject someone for support. I also hope Sara and Joanna never work with people like me anywhere, ever again.

    I do not know how social services offers their support. I guess they just look at all the paperwork already available and come to the conclusion that certain people must be nuts, based on their charges, going by their reputation, or whatever it is.

    So if somebody has beat you to the punch and said all this stuff, or it is logged in the system, that goes around everywhere you end up. Even if you switch to a new service, it is still in your case file. It can impact their decision to offer a client support packages, just like it can affect you finding a job. If you had a history of making women feel uncomfortable, whether it was a proven fact or just an accusation that damages your rep, and it is a female-dominated profession, they will think you are some kind of sex pest and unsafe around women. My mother wants me to pay to access my medical records to find out what garbage they have on me.

    Not only that, but they can pick and choose their customers, because they provide the funding. Of course, they are not inclined to openly come out and say, "Son, we do not want to support you". It would make them look like they are discriminating somebody in need of care. So they can go about it a different way, like by lying to spare your feelings. But I have had that a lot in my life. People with autism often do not understand even simple social situations.

    I am not sure if I could really trust people like that again. Sara and Joanna have never even tried to understand that what they did has ruined my life. Not once have they taken a less selfish approach, and I swear, if you only knew all the crap I have been through over them simply having me arrested. They are just content to have me arrested as many times as it takes to kill me, have me thrown in police station cells, locked up in prison, going back to court, and having my life wrecked even more. Like I said, I am due the council a grand. I am a guy living on income who has to pay a thousand pounds back to the council, because of late payments or suspended payments. This is because my time in jail went over 13 weeks. It was not meant to be like that, but they gave me a sentence that ran with the other one, for a petty crime that was not related to the other offenses. And like I said, I went through the trouble to get a medical certificate, which they ignored in court.

    The reason they jailed me again, was because I liked this music by someone called Pete Wylie. He used to talk to me on Twitter. Then I think I came on strong, or bothered him in some way. He put me on mute, which means that people who apply this option do not get a 'notification' when you post a tweet. It is like you are set up to be ignored. This personally offended me, so I lashed out at him. In an ideal world, I really just wanted to offer an apology for saying whatever it was he was offended by, and continue being a fan. Now I am not sure whether to hate his guts. By the way, if you have never heard of him before, he is the guy in this English, 80's era "Wah!" band. They were popular for a brief spell back in those days, and I happen to really like retro pop music.



    If I took them to court, it would be a massive waste of time, and courts hate having their time wasted. Plus, the system is on their side - all the way. So even the best solicitor could not do anything to convince a judge I was screwed.

    But you know your life is in ruins when you get rejected for a part in some no name short film, because other film crew has been spreading libel. I wish I was kidding, but that has been happening. Recently, I contacted someone about a small film. They said last week I would be contacted this week, but they said the roles were filled up. Keep in mind, this is a short film with a very low budget and probably hardly any actors in it at all. To me, I think they just like to lie. They are all part of this university in my town, so if somebody from a technical team has heard about me, they tell other students to not have me in their films. I know this is what happens. Do I have proof? No, unfortunately. This started with someone called Nicolette McKeown. But it is kind of obvious when the same thing happens over and over again. When I send any person making a film a message on Facebook, no one really ever responds, or if they do, they politely try to make up an excuse. This is because I have been slandered in the past. It happened about a year ago, and it can be traced back to 2016. I know this, because I found tweets about it.

    When I do take Sara and Joanna to court, it will be for monetary damages. But not money. I just want the judge to disallow them to work with disabled people in any capacity, any longer. They are not suitable for this type of work.

 

 

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