I'm Having a rather bleak outlook on (so-called) humanity or whats left of it as well, but I remain quite estranged from it anyway these days (by choice) and I'm okay with that for the most part. I'm a loner, but just wish I could incorporate people into my reality by as needed basis, but people disappoint me each and every time and I withdraw even further and trust nobody whatsoever these days.
I say that same thing that I won't be able to bounce back when they system slaps me in the face countless times, but somehow, I get up each time more determined, the constant brow beatings are exhausting and wear at our resolve. I know that.
I think you should be proud of your achievements and your volunteer work, you've helped people because its whom you are by nature from my perspective anyway.
Truthfully, the world will always let us down because people are selfish and only out for themselves and "use" people and step on people to get ahead. Don't change who you are to fit in. As time goes by, I'm realizing I shouldn't change anything about myself unless its for me and my personal growth.
I'm sorry I don't have much to say positive, just not there at the moment, but I did read everything. I have many appointments next week that I'm not sure I can deal with. They say NO before I even get finished asking a question lol
I hope you will find a way to enjoy this weekend regardless.