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  1. #121
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    GP is referring us to Private specialist. I am paying extra to get in quicker. The MRI scans comes to 700au ... &^%$ that!!! It's a 3cm X 2.5cm by 1cm deep lump that's been termed a number of things I care less to remember excepts the part where they say they can't rule the nasty labels that kill if left in to long. It is a lump that's been there a while, but has now grown twice the size. Not sure if it's more a case of me ripping the original lump when I exercised or both growing and ripped. Both Lisa and I decided to pay the private $180 fee to have a surgeon look at it quicker where hopefully he or she can then refer us to the MRI under the medicare system to avoid the $700 ← Scan

    Lisa's Credit card is all maxed out and I'm still paying my off - years after the defaulting ... not a good time of year for this to be happening.

    I'm not going to mess about with it as even the GP recommended getting it checked sooner than latter. Public is at least twice as long and then even longer after that. Too many ifs and buts with this one. Still hurts quite a bit, but thankfully it's starting to dull a little ... however there is a pretty big lump that needs attention ... sooner than later. The lump is quite visible I am told. I'm not going to do images of it ... as I'm already depressed enough about it. I had PT line up just after Xmas ... hmmm ... I was also at a point to turn up the heat with my cardio as well. Instead I have gained weight overnight with all the pain, cortisol, and back to comfort eating as in GRRRRRRRRRRR.

    I can't beleive this happened on the tail end of a 36 hour water fast where I was ready to let rip. Well actually that's exactly what I did. It was just a coincidence that there was a lump right where I stressed my upper back/neck. I'd like to say it's nothing - but the report that Doc got seems to indicate it needs checking ... the sooner the better.

    Unfortunately its right next to my spinal cord just to the left up on my neck. If they do have to go in ... I hope it's not one of them complacent professionals I am always whining about.
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    Last edited by Ponder; 12-19-2018 at 05:05 AM.
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    Sorry you're going through that my friend.

    I've also had 2 cancer scares that turned out to be benign. It was simply an abnormal growth of cells in my right lung, but they don't know that until they take a closer look, and the other one they thought was lymphoma turned out to be granuloma. MRI will reveal a lot and hope you can get it covered by medicare with the new doc you are seeing. Glad the meds bring some relief.

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    Other than the cancer scare, it's in a really inconvenient spot. I still have limited neck and shoulder movement. The pain is not as sharp (unless I look in the wrong direction) but still ever present and very sapping. Weight wise I have really taken a hit. I can 't be believe how much I have put on over the last 3 days. Lisa researched a little more into it, and we discovered that it's not uncommon for these types of growths to occur in fatty areas of the body.

    We note the antipsychotics I was taking lead me into the symptoms of metabolic syndrome. Other than the usual obesity symptoms such as shortness of breath and pains in the chest, the back of my neck and shoulder/trap areas become quite fatty and thick skinned (signs of metabolic syndrome) That is what lead my to tapering off those meds and eventually coming off them altogether. After Lisa read up on how growths similar to what I have thus far been DXed with are not uncommon to occur in such fatty areas ... It now makes sense why I had previously felt the once smaller button like lump on my upper back. I never thought much of it, until I reticently pulled muscles in that area. I personally suspect I might of torn/ripped the lump itself (when pulling muscle in that area) which is kind of even freaking me out all the more. Either way, it's now twice as big.

    Don't get me wrong ... I'd rather worry about other things. As you know ... it will probably be on my mind until I get the damn MRI out of the way and hear the results of that. My depression at the moment stems more from the fact that the pain is not going away or subsiding. I'm getting ready for bed now, so hopefully tomorrow will bring some hope. The ibuprofen is causing me acid/reflux ... I'm going to take the codeine tonight as it's helping to calm be down a little as well as help me sleep with the thudding pain.

    Srry to keep going on about it ... but doing so seems to be helping. I just can't stop thinking how close I was to setting off on my usual fitness regimen and then this. My family have been pushing the "don't exercise thing on me" but they don't understand what that means to me. I will for sure be backing of push ups or anything the puts pressure on my back. Sigh ... Lot's of walking I guess Sal. Starting from scratch all over again.

    Once again ... I just can't get motivated anymore until I the scan results are in. 2 weeks till I see surgeon, then they will make referral. Have no idea how long it will taken after that. The fast tracking of surgeon is one thing, but I can't afford the 700$ got the scan. Hopefully the private doc will push it through the following week and I hear something back soon after that.

    Yadda Yadda ... I try my best to lift my chin.

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    So how are you doing?

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    Hey there Sal. Thx for asking Regardless of the lump ... I'm still in a log of pain. Still unable to drive due limited neck movement. I'll be honest and admit that I have been playing on my computer which is probably holding back the healing a little. I'll be having a couple days off my computer soon enough so figure that will help for sure. I still can't get over how easily I pulled the muscle in my neck and also just how long the healing process is. The said it could take up to 3 weeks.

    The nights are the worse as being inactive seems to be when it locks up; get stiff and sore.
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    How are you going Sal? You got much planned on Xmas day ... is it going to be a big one for you this year?

    Thx again for asking after me.
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    Howdy P and Dahlia and all my other old friends !! Just wanted to wish you all the best and I do pop in from time to time. P If you remember my health anxiety is one of my biggest issues unfortunately not the only one but I did read down through some of what you got going on and I'm keeping you in my thoughts and hopefully it's just a fluid leak that you aggravated. They can fill with spinal fluid and be a real pain in the neck.
    I haven't been keeping up but wanted to stop in and hey and let you all know I think of you and I always wish all of you the best!!
    " it is better to keep ones mouth shut and be thought a fool than to open it and remove all doubt ", Mark Twain.

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    John happy to see you, keep strong, and have a good xmas
    ''“If you cry because the sun has gone out of your life, your tears will prevent you from seeing the stars.”
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    Hi John, nice to see you again. Always good to see old friends popping in.

    Unfortunately, I have a few conditions plaguing me at this time, but lets do hope hey.

    I hope you and yours have been as well as can be. Here's to wishing you a very merry Xmas or whatever you call this time of year.

    Thx for popping in and the well wishes.

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    Ponder have a good holiday to, I wish you no pain, I know you feel very bad in pain. I wish I could help you. If you feel like talking you know where you can find me,
    ''“If you cry because the sun has gone out of your life, your tears will prevent you from seeing the stars.”
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    Update ... mostly because writing up it might help. Not doing so good. Once again I am struggling to get out of bed:



    The pain this thing is causing me due to limited neck movement and waking up with locked muscles is starting to really frustrate and depress me. Have to wait like a couple of months by the time I see doctors, have scans and then maybe come up with another date to cut the thing out. If they cut it out.


    The lump under the skin has an elongated shape as depicted with the outline in photos where the new lesions that have no popped up marking the outer edges of the perimeter. This was half the size not so long ago, although the lump has been for at least several months; but was not me causing me the debilitating pain I am no experiencing. I can no longer drive as a result of limited movement and constant pain. The lump is more felt than seen ... it measures 3cm X 2cm by 1cm Deep ... at last ultrasound.
    Last edited by Ponder; 12-24-2018 at 02:26 PM.
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