Do not worry Alias, you know that my maternal instinct kick in , when I see you. Who will better understand you than us, We go through the same things. I am old and still kicking , even i wanted to end things so many times, had some tries to end it, Not from the moment I got my daughter and son. I m still thinking about it, but it does not going to be a problem.
I wish you find someone who will support you when you needed, For now you have us Alias, I wish you the best from a bottom of my heart <3