i tend to feel this rush of panic (like my heart would start beating faster) on such stupid and irrational things, like this one time i wanted to buy some food for my family at home since i'm at a place where it sells good food, but i just doubt myself for no reason, keep telling myself 'maybe the next store' over and over and ended up buying food near home, and i just felt so stupid and dumb. i also can't stand being still for too long, like when i'm in a ceremony or something similar, i'd feel stressed and fidgety, going out is something that i also struggle with, i even rejected hanging out with my good friend once or twice because i overthink about what we'll talk about and i can't think of anything so i wanted to avoid the awkward possibilities and i feel horrible, but i think i'm getting better at that. but i mean, i don't know, it might just be me