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    Cool, the great belated Peter Powell's son Paul responded to my email re the kite. It's all systems go. I also don't need to use the tail. I don't see any point until I can actually make the kite dance. Now all I need is wind! Unfortunately not much of that been around of late. I feel like a kid with a telescope on a cloudy night. Patience is a virtue I guess. I will just keep reading up on the subject until the windy season kicks in. Not sure we have seasons anymore but that mindset will suffice. I'll do a video later on once I am able to control the kite.

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    Trains coming and going every 5 minutes. Imagine having your bedroom window next to that. I mean I love the PC Game Train Simulation 2018, but fuck that shit! Apparently you get used to it after a while ... or so my son tells me. I can see how that might happen and have even live on top of train tracks from time to time. Certainly a lot to see here, but still not used to the city odor. Not sure I will ever get used to that. Got lost on the way in ... but that's to be expected coming this close to the CBD. OK ... Time to go out and find some nice places to visit in off the streets.




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    I have to admit my perception of city life is distorted from my experience of sleeping under bridges ... although without trains overhead like the one depicted. I know it's more from my years of sleeping on city streets with all that noise, hustle and bustle that I am more sensitive to the smells, noises, and overall tension. If city life is working for others ... then more's the power to them. I guess in time if we are to survive that cities will have no choice but to become quieter, cleaner and friendlier. Where I live by the ocean could also do with a good dose of user friendly upgrades. Again it's all perspective. Not everyone has the the comfort and security that's found indoors. I guess it really does come down to exposure on many lvls.

    There are some interesting and nice places to see in the city. Just not the best for my super sensitivities.
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    Long drive again today. First we see the specialist for Lisa. Her MS. Pleased to say I spent three hours behind the wheel yesterday without the need for Lisa to take over. Good practice for my 6+ hour trip to see mum next month. I think I calculated 5-6 years since I seen mum last. Same with my Sister too. Not meaning to count me chickens before they hatch but I might be picking up my sister on the way yet. Although that would make my trip longer and I am kind of hoping sis will be available for the trip. I'm the only one that drives from my mothers side. Most of my kids don't drive, although my eldest daughter is game riding a tiny moped bike. Full credit to her gusty effort mixing it up with the traffic.

    Man ... I got to say I am absolutely stuffed. My son is a cook and since we arrived yesterday the food did not stop coming. The 2kg I lost I am sure I just put back on. It was good to catch up with him and our new daughter. She is a good girl too.

    Not much else to say really. Mind has been racing ... purging with all kinds of frustrations, confusions and sadness - BUT is OK. The topic at last men's group (Just the other day) was about anger. I do beleive I was misunderstood ... but no matter ... I will go back again and see if there is anything to be gained. For me I feel it was a good purging session. The floor like in here is for anyone to use. If you one chooses not to use it, they have the option of getting up and leaving if they are unable to sit with discomfort. Regardless whether it is their own or anothers. In forums like these, you get the benefit of using the ignore feature.

    I feel even more ready now to hook into what works for me. Of late I have been doing well enough back into the exercise and continue researching online without the hang up of 'oh no ... your doing it again' I kind of nearly went down that path ... but now taking my own advice on allowing myself to ... well ... just be me!

    I can't wait to get back home so I can start trotting around a new spot I found. Actually I already knew it was there, but did not think about using for my running drills. BTW - just doing chi running. Researched it ages ago and it works really well on my joints. Running and joint issues is so overrated ... more like a myth ... an excuse not to do it for many people whilst no doubt a genuine issue for some. Emphasis on some. Not making any friends saying that I know. Is OK ... they can go ride a bike. I should probably get back on mine as well. Narrrr - I can now go fly a Kite. lol Perhaps I do both once I am well enough to confront people and the traffic.

    Seriously it can be such a good getting out the front door to face the world as is let alone find a piece of green where I can sit and be free. Definitely an issue for me and city living. Issue enough living in so called paradise.

    Where ever you live ... hope this finds you well.

    Adios.
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    Back Home: I did all the driving. ZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz



    I was not sure if the IconX earbuds were water proof or not. Thankfully the lithium batteries did not foam up in my ears during my 5 mile trot when I got back home. I think it must of been the affirmation in my last post stating "I can't wait to get back home so I can start trotting ..." where I just felt compelled to head on out my front door in the pouring rain and go for a trot. That's exactly what I did as soon that thought came to mind. I did so wearing the casual clothes I had driven home in. The only thing I stopped to do was check online to find out if my expensive earbuds were water proof or not. I found two conflicting reports so figured there was only one way to tell. Out the door the I went trotting down the road like a lost chook without its head.

    Sigh ... 5 miles later I uploaded this pic my wife graciously took (but with not without a sigh of her own - lol) ...

    ... and Bob's your uncle; another post done!

    I feel like putting out my clothes for my morning workout and finishing the evening off with a cool down meditation ... then some quality ASMR and off to bed.

    It's not one month but 6 more weeks before my next huge trip. My goal between then and now is to really let lose with as much exercise and clean eating as I can. Is time to get back into my self motivating ways. 6 Weeks is enough time to right the boat and prep for the 12+ hour return trip. I did well all things considered on this trip. Pat's self on the back and keeps up the positive self talk.

    ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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    you had survived the driving, very good. D i left the message on fb, when you there check it up for now ........good
    ''“If you cry because the sun has gone out of your life, your tears will prevent you from seeing the stars.”
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    NP D - We need to be on at the same time in order to resolve that issue. I can write up a good tutorial and link what's needed but without actually being there in the present or seeing what's going on ... I am limited in my ability to assist. I saw you on, but then you dropped off. Best I can say is I am going out the back to exercise for a bit and will check again ... I will check throughout the day.

    I can't think straight using FB tiny little box either ... but for live chat it will do.

    Just make sure your Newly Created Logical Drive is in fact the one that has nothing on it. (of course it would be ... but just check) If so that's the one you need to delete. It's easy for me to say the reason it's not sitting next to C: is because you did not follow that video exactly ... BUT ... I can't say that since I did not see that steps you took. Don't stress! I just need to be online chatting live with you at the same time ... unless your feeling OK about going ahead and deleting the Newly Logical Drive G: and seeing what happens. lol ... mayebe then it might turn into unallocated space and reside right next to C: where we want it to be.

    Then you can right click on C: and slect Extend Volume to get your extra 78GB.

    To be honest if Grive is the one you just created which I think it is ... you have nothing to loose by messing with it. Seems like you have to delete it to create unaccounted space so C:drive can use it in order for C: to be extended.

    Don't worry ... this is how you learn about PCs.

    Keep watching this space ... I check back in FB after my exercise ... otherwise hopefully you will pull it off in the mean time.

    I believe this is where you are up to given the screen shot you showed me:


    EXCEPT his D is your G AND your G seems to be sitting NOT next to C
    https://youtu.be/HNSI-p4YHZE?t=83

    The question on my mind is "Will the fact that your G not sitting next to C mean that C: will not Extend?

    I assume that is what you are also thinking? "When you say 'How do I move G?" It's a good question. I'm kind of wondering how G ended up where it did ... BUT ... let's not worry about that. (this is the limitation of me not seeing you make the steps is all ... but no matter) If we get stuck we can extend E back to how it was and start again ... but with me online at the same time.

    For now ... I propose that you are at the point in tutorial as time stamped above. You tell me if that's about right?

    Forget that fact that your G is not positioned next to C ... just do the next step by deleting G. What happens? Does it turn into Unallocated Space? If so GOOD. It seems that is what is suppose to happen according to the next step (forgetting G: Position)
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    It usually takes me like 5 goes of doing something before I understand what's going on.

    If you can make G unallocated but still cant extend C ... it will for sure be due to the position of G which means we can extend E using the Unallocated G. You will then have things back to the way you started ... then what I would do if I was you is start all over again following the steps of tutorial video. Then at the exact time you shrink your drive ... look to see where your drives are positioned and ask yourself if everything is sitting in the right place.

    I best get on with my exercise ... definitely hope to catch you online later on. I will be taking Lisa to work in between is all.

    Press on D ... if your just messing with your newly created logical drive you can't mess anything up.

    Good luck.

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    I've been checking in like I said ... still missing ya. Done my exercise ... will do more later on. Just heading off to drop Lisa off and check out my Son in law's Xbox before making final decisions to buy one. I'll be about 3 to 4 hours ... if I miss ya ... rest up well. Hope this finds you as well as can be.

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    Got the FB message ... all good. You can still delete the newly created logical drive to make it unallocated. Then either try expanding c: drive again ... OR just Expand your D rive to go back to original state. Right Click to expand ... but you must delete logical drive to make it unallocated.

    Time for Netflix ... Definitely going to buy the XboxOne now that they have come out with a more expensive one. Just check out my SonInLaw's and the XboxOne is still looking pretty damn good! Cheap price for it now. OneS have loud fans ... or is a roll of the dice and does not to Native 4K at anyrate. Care less about the extras with that as is the same hardware on XboxOne. I'm already convinced. Just need to wait another month.

    Despite being a skeptic of conspiracy theories ← ahahahahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaa ... I found this VERY intriguing:


    I'm like "Why would the powers that be allow a doco like this to even exist if it where all true? ... it has to be BS ... right?" ... then my wife says - "That's what they want you to think!" Aaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr True.

    I'm no longer convinced we landed on the moon when they said we did. I think people are way too easily led and that point being the mass hoax of all ... like the twin towers. America is so full of BS. ... and now they they think the answer is to give teachers guns. Pffft ... No wonder they have people killing pulling triggers the way they do. Whilst we seem to be liking America's boots with our own pollys bending over backwards for the $$$ influence; I don't think we will ever see us arming our teachers. We don't allow guns anymore since the last shooting spree in port aurthor. Since they outlawed guns in this county, we have not had one mass shooting ... not ever since they outlawed them. ZERO episodes. In the US it's all about peoples egos ... more important than the life of their kids. Even the religious folk prep with guns to kill those that might come for their food. Very Ironic. Of course ... Only in America. Sadly we have them types too.

    I'm kind of hopping they do start arming the teachers ... their society is on the brink as it is. The arming of teachers I beleive will send america over the edge and make it one of the most undesirable countries on the planet to live. Using a big stick only makes many more little sticks. Many little sicks can break a big stick ... it just keeps going in circles from there. May as well speed up the process and let them teachers have guns. The sooner that country comes to an end ... the better off we will all be. There are enough other countries that can play the BS deceptive role of so called peace keeper. Fuck America ... and Fuck Australia ... Fuck all the Allies and their associated SHEEP.

    Time to wake the fuck up. Just as well we don't have guns in this country. Is pretty much what I said at last group. Much harder to kill people with a knife. You at least take longer to think about that. Guns PFFFFT what a bunch of tossers. Do us all a favor and start arming your teachers. SIT! I said SIT!!!!!!! What a fucking sad country! Always about the symptoms. Never the cause. Arming the teachings will only add to the cause.

    No guns ... no mass killings. Simple! Fucking Tossers. Poor Kids.
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    Sorry ... Americans are humans too and I don't mean to judge people according to lables ... I'm just so fucking ANGRY that their leaders are soooooo fucked up! (as well as ours too) It's such a no brainer - yet they will keep their guns.

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    I need a laugh ... how's the mediumship going D? I don't think this guy is doing so well. However It was nice of him to offer his body up to be of service for a Xmas gift.



    I came across this guy after typing in 'Alien Contact' into TuneInRdaio on my phone to kill time whilst out walking. It was really funny to listen to:
    https://audioboom.com/posts/5941894-...this-is-korton
    Last edited by Ponder; 02-23-2018 at 02:07 AM.

 

 

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