So I was in the washroom about thirty minutes ago putting some lotion on my arms, and all of a sudden my irrational fear hits me and hits hard. I don't want to name it....it might triggter. I can't even say it outloud anymore. -___- I have been doing ok... recently, I've had more and more panic attacks and moments of anxiety. I can't seem to focus myself enough to pull away from the irrational thoughts today though. I'm so tired of this. I think I need my ativan refilled. I haven't had to take one in nearly a year....but it might be time to do it. I don't think I will make it through the holidays at this rate.
tldr; I just needed to vent.... I'm tired of anxiety, tired of this stupid fear!