Hi All,
I've suffered anxiety for many years, and have had two cases of depression. Recently my anxiety has been playing up, mostly intense worrying about nothing, and over analysing things, but nothing that stops me going about my day to day life.
Anyway, I'm in a very, very happy relationship with a loving man who I want to spend the rest of my life with. I am terrified of losing him when my anxiety is bad. Just the other day, I was talking to a close friend, and she mentioned a colleague whose partner had died tragically, and this took me back to some very very dark thoughts I had in the winter.
I was watching a TV show, and someone had died, and they were looking at their gravestone (it was set in the future), for some reason I imagined it was my partners grave, and saw next year in my head as a death date. This terrified me, I thought I'd some how seen the future, and that I was going to lose him really soon. After speaking about my friends colleague, I cannot stop thinking about it. I'm convinced that because I thought of it, it will some how come true, that it was a premonition.
Freaking myself out here, help!