Hello everyone, just reposting my thread I posted on the Welcome forum.
Here are some of the things that happen to me regularly that I would like some insight about:
Sometimes, when the anxiety gets really bad, and stress rushes through my body and mind, I feel like I've already lived/seen the situation I'm experiencing in a dream or in a vision. It's like a déjà-vu or a premonition, and that in this moment, or in the really near future, I will die or something catastrophic (natural disaster, me going completely nuts, losing control, getting rejected by my family because of a breakdown...) will happen and there is nothing I can do about it.
Also, some other times I get a foggy feeling of being in a dream-like state, like I am not participating in reality and everything (so familiar cognitively) seems and feels... new. It's not a bad feeling per se, but it feels strange and like it shouldn't really happen too often. Is it derealization ?
Some other times I feel an existential fear of my own mortality, that gets me really nervous and anxious to do a lot of things fast and good in order to produce something worthwhile while I am still alive. Terrifying feeling. It feels like the skull some artists have on their desk is constantly following me around, reminding me of time ticking away... it can really make me anxious and a little sad, but I don't allow myself to get demoralized by it.
Also, sometimes I get weird memory and attention blocks. Sometimes I forget, for a brief period of time, what I did the day before or a sentence I just heard etc...
Some other times, I can't seem to focus so well on the task at hand and get lost in a thought and need to consciously remind myself of what I was doing. That's weird because I've always had a great memory and attention/concentration capability. Probably caused by a heightened state of stress ?
Finally, although it's true I have myopia, I noticed like I can't really see that well without my glasses on, compared to other times when I am not as much stressed out. Like if anxiety and stress diminished the power of my eyes... is it because I spend a lot of times looking at screens (computer, iphone and university lectures) and that I have eyesight problems (myopia) in the first place ? or does anxiety play a role in that as well ?
Thanks for reading me.
Have a blessed day.
AnxiousMicky