hello! i just wanted to rant about something real quick. . .
i'm currently in my first year of the IB (International Baccalaureate) program. so far, i've been doing really well! even better than last year because my courses are quite easy and my grades have been really high. the thing is, though, i'm worried about one single course and that is the IB Visual Art course. to be quite honest with you, i don't really know what to pursue in my future. i adore writing and english and i love art, hence why Literature and Art are my high-levels. i'm definitely not scientific or anything. thing is, i started taking art classes during the summer and i've actually progressed a lot! i'm not amazing at it, but it's something i love and it's something i want to continue learning. art may not be what i pursue in the future but i'd still like to carry it on. however, i'm so worried about it. i have my exhibition next year and i'm gripped with fear from now. i have to present about 8-11 works and i am petrified because i feel like i'm going to suck at it and my art won't be great and i'll be left humiliated and devastated. i'm working on my first project now and there are so many things i hate about it. . .i feel like it's just not right. i also can't help but compare myself to my other art peers, who will do so well and i'll be the only one who'll fail.
sorry for the pessimism! i can't help it sometimes.