Well, hello. Here I go. I want to be a public speaker, but I'm scared to death of crowds watching me. I want to do whatever it takes to get over my phobias of being around too many people, especially people I hardly know. I heard there are good prescription drugs for SAD, and I'm ready to explore these avenues. On top of this, I've been diagnosed with BPD... Oh, how I love civilization but hate the price I have to pay for it when what's in the genes ain't cooperating!