This pain is about belonging because somewhere along the way, I stopped trying to be myself, and forgot about all there is to make me unique. I don't know how it happened. I guess I couldn't handle the hits towards my personality any more. I just gave up. Like a flower that shrivels without enough water and sunlight, I couldn't find a space to call my own. The others are all alike, me... No energy to flourish, only to hold on a little more.
Sorry for the dramatic words. Trying to purge this pain out of my system.