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Hey, don't be too hard on yourself, you've really come a long way. Actually, I think my cold turkey method of getting of meds was more detrimental than helpful, but it is what it is. Sometimes when things are going rough, its needed to return to that maintenance dosage. I'm sorry, in that, I don't know everything you are going through, but it sounds like you are steadfast on becoming med free someday. I'm off my SSRI and other psych meds and I feel more human, I rather just take a Valium as needed . Sure, I do struggle to keep sane (and I use that term sanity loosely), and I take things day-to-day and just expect some unknown WD symptoms (some take up to 6 months or longer to pass), but it was worth it in the end. I won't worry until I really show signs of mania to even consider going back on all the pills.
2 things jumped out at me here, 1 being, the full moon also messes me up. I feel mentally all over the place during these times. 2nd being, getting rid of old clutter in the house. I don't know about you, but keeping items around for nostalgic reasons only keeps me stuck in the past and holds me back. Several years ago, I finally decided to just rid myself of sentimental items and it was very helpful to me in moving forward.
Anyway, I'm not sure how helpful this was, but I wish you the best.