Ever since I can remember, I have been petrified of talking to people. When I was a kid, it was passed off as shyness, which is exactly what I thought it was. But as I got older, I realised shyness couldn't be used as an excuse anymore. When I was in middle and high school, I realised that even though I want to have those certain people whom I can trust, talk to, laugh with, I was afraid to even try. The older I got, the worse it got. I used to be able to talk to people online easy enough, but now it's a battle unless I'm brought into a chat room with at least one person that I know. But in real life, it's absolute hell.
I'm 22 years old, but I get panic attacks every time I have to make a phone call or have to go ask someone a question in a store, doctor's office, etc. My grandmother laughs about it, but I don't find it funny in the least (I'm annoyed but I don't really fault her; she's not and never has been in the psychiatry/psychology fields).
When researching mental illnesses for a role-play character (RPing is the only time I have no fear of social interactions, oddly enough), I found avoidant personality disorder, and every single symptom that was mentioned, I have. The entire description is me to a T. Could I have this? I used to see a psychiatrist and I told him about it (while trying not to have a literal heart attack), but he did not call it that; he just labelled it as anxiety. I've heard of social anxiety, but is it one and the same or two completely different things?