Originally Posted by
tooscaredtodrive88
Hi Dan,
I can kind of relate to your experience. My first panic-attack happened over work, but continued to spiral because I feared "what if this never ends", "when will it go away". Basically, the newness of it as a first-time occurrence jump-started a whole slew of new worries, on top of physical experience, which is scary. I'm not sure what will help, but I wish I would have gotten some massages. A comforting-touch, massage, acupressure, holding a loved one, and crying helped with feeling safe. I think its awesome that you can do the meditation, and it works! Cling onto the fact that your able to have meditation work for you, even if its a short time.
Another thing to try, is watching one of your favorite comedians, and try to get yourself able to laugh. Try singing, too if you're able. A soothing warm drink. And a bath to try and relax your muscles.
If the impending doom and pressure is mainly related to work, take a holiday if you're able to make an informed decision to leave. If its many things at once, try to isolate a few of them. Kuma gives great advice. Most important, stay connected with people. If you're afraid to leave work, try and see if you're friends know of any other places that are hiring. For me, part of the pressure was "if I leave, it means i failed!". If I could go back in time, I would have focused more on a future plan.
Also, the livestream -- are you performing, like a stage-fright thing? I had a little trouble understanding. If its stage-fright, you could find a temp coach or a friend to keep your spirits up.
Hang in there, keep up the meditation, and focus on foods like ham-soup, cheese soups, soups with your favorite things.