Hello...I'm new here and just looking for some advice regarding my current situation. In brief, I have social phobia and suffer from agoraphobia. It has only ever affected my personal life and I've managed to keep working. However, in February I started a new job at a great organisation that will greatly benefit my career (it is a hospital). I've been off since end of March as my dad was ill and then I started having anxiety attacks again (I hadn't had any for about a year or so). So, I've missed the last three weeks of work. I Was meant to go in today but ended up over sleeping which has left me in more of a panic (I have trouble sleeping at night as well). I basically don't know what to do. I am so scared to go back. It feels silly but I am worried people will say things about me or to me (they have previously said little comments about me being new to the job etc but I've been able to brush it off). As the shifts are 13 hours it means literally spending more than half the day with my colleagues and I am absolutely petrified of going back in, I don't know how I will cope. Has anyone had to deal with this before? I feel a lot of pressure on me as my partner and I live alone and so have bills to pay etc and at the moment I just feel like I'm being very irresponsible and failing at life.