i have a very close group of friends there are three of them I've known them since intermediate school! We graduated together we hang out when we can! I know they are my friends but, sometimes i think they only hang out with me because they feel sorry for me. When we text i have to think about what i want to say to them 'should i add a smiley face?' 'what do i say to keep the convo going or does she want to stop talking?' 'are they just texting me because they are all gathered together laughing at what i reply?' i just have a feeling like, they are laughing at me and not with me yet, we could go out and i feel included but sometimes i just have that thought in the back of my head that they really dislike me and secretly laugh at me and talk about me when i am not with them. and when i think like that it makes me sad and angry i think 'i don't need them anyway.' 'i don't need any friends at all!' i'm just scared one day i will push my friends away. if anyone feels this way how do you make those thoughts go away?
(sorry for the super bad grammar)