What does it the most is when I feel I'm being fooled by people I once trusted. I'm really good at being able to tell when I'm being told things to just brush me off, rather than actually relate to me - this in turn sends my anxiety up in to "panic mode" and makes me want to totally crazy glues this mask on permanently and never allow people to see the 'real me'. Sometimes I feel I was meant to be in total isolation and its scary. But, what is even more scary is when the anxiety is replaced my numbness and I totally shut down mentally.
Of course I'm talking about online correspondence because I rarely leave the house the days.