Hi everyone! I am new here and would love to hear some of your experiences in this regard.
I am an assistant in a Montessori school and am getting my Master's to be a lead teacher. I love the children and this work is my passion! For the past six months at my current school I have bebe working only 5 hours a day, but this week they moved me up to 8 hours.
Almost every day I am late – I am so panicked in the morning that I just cannot make myself move until the very last minute. It's so stressful. This is not a job you can just be late for! After the holidays I missed a teacher in-service day because I was too panicked in the morning and the later it got the more my social anxiety also grew about calling in, so I turned off my phone and hid. Everyone was worried about me, and I finally explained agor to my boss. She said that because of my work in the classroom she has no intention of firing me but hopes we can work together to help me be more successful.
I feel worthless and every day I am so panicked, especially now that I know I have 8 full hours out of the house (+ 1/2 hour bus rides both ways) waiting for me.
I am 2 months pregnant and I am looking forward to being able to stay at home as a mom like I'm journeying toward the promised land lol. I do worry about the baby being affected by my panic and stress about going to work every day.
Do you think I could be just not ready to work? Or are there strategies you have used to combat this?