It's been 2 yrs since I last attended a mass. Back then , I tagged along w/ dad since mom had passed away. Those 2 always went to church, happily, like a 2 cheer leaders on the way to a big tournament. Then after mom passed, I went to keep my dad's spirits up. Then when he passed away, I had no one to attend mass with. Also torn between my old school parish and my parents parish. since my parents had their funeral masses at 1 church in particular, i am now like little Albert and cannot fathom the thought of going back to dad's parish. but my former school parish I know hardly anyone. This 1 lady whom i do know nthat goes there is very disturbed and I would hate to end up at the same mass as her. So obviously this is an ANXIETY issue for me.......With the holidays coming up and all i just feel very confused?