I am losing hope everyday, i dont want to die, but i wish i would go to sleep and not wake up. i dont have a bf...or a job...or really anything going for me anymore. I used to be able to work and have bfs...but my anxiety hit really bad at 24...and i havent worked full time sense then...that was 6 years ago....ive had one before since that time....and he pretty much let me know how i was going to hurt his life being the way that i am....so he dumped me and got engaged to someone else really quick...and they are happy....all of my exs are married....and i just keep wondering why i am messed up....why cant i just be normal.....im so tired of living this way.