I have been having huge problems in my relationship for a while. Jelousy has been huge, and I also when I drink my behaviour chages and I become angry & aggressive.
STruggling to eat or sleep and am trying as of now to stop drinking and smoking weed. which I have a problem with.
My partner has ended our relationship now, again, and i think finally.
I owned up to the checking of emails, phone calls etc, and asked that she change her login details.
She has not done this or doesn't know how .. and still find myself checking, alone, anxious as hell and feeling like I have no strength left.
I am no suicidle, I have a gorgeous 6 year old daughter, and a loving family.
I don't feel I can talk with my friends as they don't understand the depth to which I got myself into this hell..
Its being going on for over a year now and me fiancé / ex .. has tried so hard to help and forgive and move on, but I erupted again on Saturday night and also carried on Sunday, checking calls, acting on them …. I feel so low …
I am going to force myself to go and play football now as I know thats the right thing to do… I can't keep hitting the booze and I'm scared about going an alcoholic group
AJ