Righto -
I best bunker down in here. Friends welcome to join that understand how screwed up I have become. I best check my feelings here. Same as others no friends and feeling extremely volatile.
I have already been "Flagged" on the system as after making a desperate call to the local "Community Mental Health Service" - My prescribed meds were cited by name, before I had said a thing.
The day earlier, I lost it in one of the medical centers due to a rather heartless and mechanical doctor who left my for dead with a spiteful goodbye outside his door, with me not knowing what the fuck I was supposed to ask for or do. I completely lost it and made it out without then police intervention. I walked backward and forwards a few times out the front wondering where my car was parked and what else was next on my list - Shopping! I found a seat right in the middle of all the hustle and bustle - there I sat - waiting for either the police to show, or me to zone in on the air conditioning and through the haze of utter mixed rage and raw emotion. "FUCK IT - Now I have to start this whole process all over again!"
Wife back in Hospital -
BRB -