First off I am diagnosed with Panic Disorder (unmedicated)
Two days ago my father and I were taking my grandma to the hospital because we thought she had the flu and was very weak, while we were walking her to the van she collapsed and died in our arms. We got her to the hospital, she was revived, and put on life support until my family could visit her, after they took her off life support for the first time in my life I saw my dad cry. That was the last I can remember, until I woke up in a hospital bed.
The doctor told me that with my disorder, and the emotional burden of my grandmothers death caused my BP to rise to 246/198 and my Pulse to 201, and was given 3mg of Ativan through injection and was given a one week prescription of 7(1mg) tablets.
I didn't think I'd need my prescription, so I haven't taken it until 45 minutes ago, but over the last few days I've felt like a zombie. Not zombie as in no energy/motivation, but more as just like no emotions what-so-ever. I don't feel happy, sad, angry, worried, or afraid. But last night, and this morning I've been experiencing panic attacks for multiple hours at a time, but not my usual panic attacks, just the pain associated with them (chest pain, difficulty breathing, loss of feelings in limbs, accompanied by an extremely light headedness).
The pain associated with the attacks has gone away, and my brain feels completely empty, similar to how I felt a couple hours after waking up in the hospital.
My question is, should I speak to my doctor about getting a prescription permanently, or do you think this will just be part of the grieving process, and a weeks worth of medication will be enough?