Hey I want some opinions on my symptoms. Im a 22yr old lad, used to be outgoing, fun loving etc. I never touched drugs or smoked but drank quite a lot socially. A few of my friends started dabbling in speed and coke and after one mammoth drinking session at an all nighter I succombed and had 3 bombs of speed. The next dayI felt like I was dying and in the passenger seat of my friends car coming back from this weekend away we'd had I started having all muscle twitchin, my face went numb and I felt I had to battle to stay conscious but I did keep conscioussness. When we got home after the two hour journey that can only be described as hell, I vomitted so violently projectile!! Only on one occassion tho. I couldnt sleep that night due to fear of not waking and decided to go to A + E and admit my stupidity. They did an ECG and had a little chat and said I was fine. I couldnt eat anything but toast and the next day I went on hol to corfu cos I didnt wanna let my gf down and tell her wot I'd done! I felt shocking I still wasnt eating and upon arriving in corfu I went straight to hospital where they put me on a drip for 2 days and built me back up etc due to dehydration. After this I never drank barely any alcohol on the holiday and felt really strange. Upon returning home to a hero's welcome because everyone thought I'd battled some strange virus I returned to work and all was normal except I couldnt stop reading symptoms of speed overdose, lymphoma and god knows what else online and panicking like mad! 3mths of this has passed and Ive become so consumed that I feel im walking in a dream etc. Ive heard of derealisation through my mum who is a mental health nurse. She's bought me the book 'AT LAST A LIFE' by Paul David of which some makes sense. However im not convinced I just have anxiety and fear I may have permanently damaged myself beyond repair by that one off dabble.
My doctor has prescribed me some anti depressants on the 3rd visit because of the torment im giving myself and problems in other areas of my personal life. I know this goes on forever. My proposed anxiety leads to extreme absent mindedness and confused thoughts eg. Nearly just walking across the road into the traffic without looking because im constantly obsessed by my feelings. Its got to the point where I have had to take a two week break from working as an electrician, however im worried i'll never recover and wont be able to work, my gf will leave me cos I wont go out etc etc etc. I am certain some of my problems are anxiety but the memory loss is scaring me and all the information I read online is aimed at people with social phobias which I dont have! SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP COS IM GETTIN DESPERATE AT TIMES