I'm in such a state again, now after thinking some things were improving I'm worse than ever, crisis team are coming soon and I feel ashamed, I tried to take just half a 5 mg Valium but I've just reached for the other half it's the symptoms I cannot handle, I'm so nauseaous, shaking and wobbly as well as feeling so tired and now I've just added to that with the Valium I'm so agitated, my husband has lost it with me, he's off fishing all night later leaving me like this with 3 kids one only 2 and a half, I feel like I'm loosing control and can't do this anymore, I want out but I'm scared.