Originally Posted by
sweetmaria
Hi everyone
My name is Maria, and I am a long term anxiety sufferer and can't seem to overcome the damn thing that makes me so miserable.
I've had it my entire life and I think it's getting worse. I am always thinking the worst. I guess they call it catastrophic thinking.
When I was pregnant ( had a baby a year ago) I was freaking out about the possible birth defects of the baby and thought about such things as cerebral palsy,
Down's, some missing or deformed limbs etc. I was in a panic mode before each ultrasound visit . I was terrified! I did not enjoy my pregnancy and suffered
Most of it because of my paranoid fear and anxiety. The pregnancy itself was just fine. The baby was born just fine and very healthy.
Also when my husband is at work and hasn't called me I always think he got into a terrible car accident and I will be left alone with the baby . Why why do i think these ridiculous thoughts?
Also I have severe hypochondria which can get worse or ease off at times. In the last i convinced myself I had AIDS, and had to get 3 tests to be sure I was OK, then I went through a heart failure phobia, then I was sure I had brain tumor because I had frequent headaches for 2 months. This is driving me absolutely nuts.
After being on maternity leave I was super anxious about going back to work as I was sure I was getting fired. Why was I sure? Because my irrational fears made me convinced that I was.
I am not on meds and don't want to be. I hate my anxiety for making me feel like such a mess. The funny thing is that no one would suspect it because I appear to have everything together.