I recently gave birth to my daughter 4 months ago and when she was about 2 months old I developed severe panic attacks. I've had anxiety before I had her but it was never this bad. I literally have panic attacks out of no where, I will just be sitting there and BAM, full blown attacks, to the point where I can't calm myself down. The physical symptoms become so intense, my mind goes blank and I can't concentrate and it makes my head feel weird, I feel like I can't breathe, I have numbness all over and feel like I'm going to lose the ability to move my limbs and especially my jaw. My headaches are out of control and my mind won't stop racing. I used to take Klonopin for 3 years and stopped about a year and a half ago, due to the fact that I had a drinking problem and would abuse them. I was off Klonopin for about 2-3 months before I got pregnant, and I felt great my whole pregnancy and didn't have any attacks. Now they are back with a vengeance. In 2 months I've already been to the hospital 2 times. I got put back on Klonopin but I'm too scared to abuse them again due to the fact that it was so hard to taper off of them, but I had to weigh my options, live in misery or take a medication that can help me relieve my symptoms. Plus I don't drink anymore so I can take them more responsibly. But here is my problem. I started off only taking .5 mg and after a few weeks they weren't working for me anymore. So I started taking them once in the morning and once before bed and now they're not working again. I still have panic attacks everyday and I don't know what to do and I don't really want to up my dose anymore. I took 1 mg at one time at 3 pm today and by 9:30 pm I'm having panic attacks again and I'm contemplating taking more, but I have such a fear of being on a high dose and never being able to get off them someday. I tell myself that I'm having this bad anxiety because I just had a baby and it's probably just postpartum anxiety and eventually I will get better again like I did before. I'm supposed to take Paxil too but I'm also too scared to take them because I don't like how anti depressants have made me feel in the past. Anyone have some insight or suggestions or maybe been though something similar. Sometimes it just gives me a piece of mind to know I am not the only one.