Help meee plz this anxiety is making me go mad..

[sadia]

Hi everyone I am fairly new to this forum so I don't even know if I am posting in the right place.... Basically since mid feb this year I ws diagnosed with overactive thyroid and was put on 20mg of carbizomle, bu that seems to be eating under control as my dosage has been decreased to 5 mg a day so I'm not to worried about that any more...
I ws also diagnosed with slight inflamation on liver which had me really worried, I had an ultra sound and the results came back as abnormal but that was apparently expected by the doctor.. The word abnormal has triggered something off in me and since that day i have been suffering from severe anxiety..

By severe I mean I can't even leave my own house I hardly go in the garden, I constantly think I am dying, it's like I have convinced myself that I am going to die, each day I wake up and the first thought I have that this is my last day on earth.. There's not been one day in the last 7 weeks where I haven't cried panicked I even had an ambulance called out to my house last week because I thought I was having a heart attack and was goin to die.. Vomited 4 times in 30 mins waiting for the paramedics to arrive, once they arrived they did and ecg and the wilt were perfect nothing wrong with the heart, I also had my blood sugar level tested and that was perfect,, the paramedic also listened to my lungs and they sounded normal aswel.. I only had a slight temp of 37.2 which the paramedic said was nothing to worry about..

I have also been having very very very bad tapped wind issues almost like its stuck in my chest and throat which make me thinks I'm dying again, I get really bad stomach aches with it.. All I constantly think about is death, it's almost like my inner voice is telling me that I am going to die.. I'm finding it very difficult to deal with. Live with my parents and sisters and I am constantly crying in front of them they are worried about me aswel, I don't like it if one or more of them go out because then I begin to think I ŵont be alive till they get back home.. I cnt have a shower without someone standing in the room with me, if I go to the doctors my sister escorts me there and back and it's literally 5 mins from my house, and when I do go its like I'm n a rush to get there and back cuz I don't want to die in between.. I feel I sound so weird writing this.. I'm sitting on my own right now everyone else is in other rooms doing there thing and I am slightly anxious..

I cnt watch programmes where people are dying, I have trouble sleeping sometimes and those hours that I am awake lying in bed are tough I just get really scared thoughts, as I am writing this I have jus had a thought that this is my last time writing something like this, I don't know what to do.. My whole body is feeling weak, my legs have no energy at all when I walk it feels like I'm bouncing or the floor is moving, my head is constantly feeling pressure, and when the pressure gets intense I feel like my heads going to explode and I am going to die, and that really makes me panic and I sometimes have to run out of the house to breathe.. I wake up every morning some morning I feel kind of ok and others I feel like crap.. I come downstairs and sit on the same spot of the same sofa everyday and do not move unles I have to use the toilet or when it's time to sleep.. It's sort of become a routine, and I feel like if this routine changes that's a sign that something is going to happen to me I can't stop thinking about dying all the time..... Omg I think I am going mad...


I have been to the doctors because I have had to get a sick note because I cannot leave the house, I told the doctor m symptoms and she says it sounds like anxiety with agoraphobia, and she put me on citlorapram which did not help at all so went back last week and she put me on some other pills which do ot work, I have another app with her next Thursday to discuss more options of different pills, she's not much help...

I seriously do not know what to do I was such an outgoing person, I have even resorted to online grocery shopping because I just don't want to go out in case something is gong to happen to me....

Does this sound like normal anxiety or have I got a different problem? Someone plz help me I have no idea at all..
I'm thinking I shouldn't post this cuz I'm gong to die pressing the send button is making ma anxious omg...

[NixonRulz]

Hi everyone I am fairly new to this forum so I don't even know if I am posting in the right place.... Basically since mid feb this year I ws diagnosed with overactive thyroid and was put on 20mg of carbizomle, bu that seems to be eating under control as my dosage has been decreased to 5 mg a day so I'm not to worried about that any more...
I ws also diagnosed with slight inflamation on liver which had me really worried, I had an ultra sound and the results came back as abnormal but that was apparently expected by the doctor.. The word abnormal has triggered something off in me and since that day i have been suffering from severe anxiety..

By severe I mean I can't even leave my own house I hardly go in the garden, I constantly think I am dying, it's like I have convinced myself that I am going to die, each day I wake up and the first thought I have that this is my last day on earth.. There's not been one day in the last 7 weeks where I haven't cried panicked I even had an ambulance called out to my house last week because I thought I was having a heart attack and was goin to die.. Vomited 4 times in 30 mins waiting for the paramedics to arrive, once they arrived they did and ecg and the wilt were perfect nothing wrong with the heart, I also had my blood sugar level tested and that was perfect,, the paramedic also listened to my lungs and they sounded normal aswel.. I only had a slight temp of 37.2 which the paramedic said was nothing to worry about..

I have also been having very very very bad tapped wind issues almost like its stuck in my chest and throat which make me thinks I'm dying again, I get really bad stomach aches with it.. All I constantly think about is death, it's almost like my inner voice is telling me that I am going to die.. I'm finding it very difficult to deal with. Live with my parents and sisters and I am constantly crying in front of them they are worried about me aswel, I don't like it if one or more of them go out because then I begin to think I ŵont be alive till they get back home.. I cnt have a shower without someone standing in the room with me, if I go to the doctors my sister escorts me there and back and it's literally 5 mins from my house, and when I do go its like I'm n a rush to get there and back cuz I don't want to die in between.. I feel I sound so weird writing this.. I'm sitting on my own right now everyone else is in other rooms doing there thing and I am slightly anxious..

I cnt watch programmes where people are dying, I have trouble sleeping sometimes and those hours that I am awake lying in bed are tough I just get really scared thoughts, as I am writing this I have jus had a thought that this is my last time writing something like this, I don't know what to do.. My whole body is feeling weak, my legs have no energy at all when I walk it feels like I'm bouncing or the floor is moving, my head is constantly feeling pressure, and when the pressure gets intense I feel like my heads going to explode and I am going to die, and that really makes me panic and I sometimes have to run out of the house to breathe.. I wake up every morning some morning I feel kind of ok and others I feel like crap.. I come downstairs and sit on the same spot of the same sofa everyday and do not move unles I have to use the toilet or when it's time to sleep.. It's sort of become a routine, and I feel like if this routine changes that's a sign that something is going to happen to me I can't stop thinking about dying all the time..... Omg I think I am going mad...

I have been to the doctors because I have had to get a sick note because I cannot leave the house, I told the doctor m symptoms and she says it sounds like anxiety with agoraphobia, and she put me on citlorapram which did not help at all so went back last week and she put me on some other pills which do ot work, I have another app with her next Thursday to discuss more options of different pills, she's not much help...

I seriously do not know what to do I was such an outgoing person, I have even resorted to online grocery shopping because I just don't want to go out in case something is gong to happen to me....

Does this sound like normal anxiety or have I got a different problem? Someone plz help me I have no idea at all..
I'm thinking I shouldn't post this cuz I'm gong to die pressing the send button is making ma anxious omg...

You aren't going mad and you are not dying from this

You are suffering from anxiety. Much the same as most here.

Because this is relatively new to you, you are scared as hell.

I was the same way when this happened to me years ago. So I and everyone here understands your fear.

The anxiety has been bad enough that you are beginning some bad habits by staying home and sitting in the same spot.

You want to fix this?

Then you need to decide to be finished with being a victim.

If just for a few moments today, change your routine and get up and move around.

Open the blinds and the windows and see what is outside that you are missing

Begin to learn about your anxiety. Great lessons in this forum.

Anxiety is a son of a bitch that tricks your mind into believing the things you think about.

You can think of all the crazy thoughts in the world, but the way you react to those thoughts is what continues the cycle.

It's anxiety. Not death. Not a heart attack or any other thing you can name.

You have classic anxiety.

So now you understand the diagnosis. For whatever the reason. your thyroid and/or genetics. End of looking for other reasons to be feeling bad.

Keep trying a few meds to help you since you are willing. When you find the right one it is amazing what they can do.

You are afraid and confused.

Don't focus on trying to go back and be who you were.

Move forward and become the healed, confident person that is inside of you.

[sadia]

I'm glad someone has replied thank you.. I have suffered from panic attacks for about 10 years n and off.. But nothing on this level.. I am trying.. It's like I'm feeling alright at the moment but that is seeming weird to me I'm like asking my self where have the scare thoughts gone does this mean something.. Feel like I'm going loopy

[sadia]

Also just wanted to ask is there certain times of the day where it feels as if your anxiety has kicked in more? And does lighting effect anyone's mood, if its too bright outside and the sun is shining in through the window I feel weird about that sometimes or if it suddenly gets dark and changes the lighting.. It's like the smallest thing make an impact on me..

[M.C]

OMG! You just sound like me!!!

Death is all I think about constantly I feel that it s going to get me every minute I live
It s horrible feeling!!! I can't stay in the house by my self I can't go to the loo or have a bath without leaving the door open I can't sleep in the bed alone I need to have my husband and 2kids too to fall asleep I can't even sit in the living room and watch the tele alone and the list goes on and on
I can't live a normal life because of the fear of dying
I m frightened to go to the doctors doing tests and scans because they ll find out that I have a terminal disease and I won't be able to handle the news
I m struggling to get rid off that feeling I tried CBT
It helped a little bit but didn't take it away
Don't know what to do??????

[sadia]

OMG I thought I was the only one... I constantly feel like I'm going to die any minute, I can't bathe without my sister standing with me.. Doctors surgery is round the corner from my house and my sister has to go with me, she even sits with me in the garden the days I choose to go in the garden, I start to panic and cry and ask my family members if I'm going to die, and sometimes I get the feeling that they know I'm going to die but they are not telling me... I have to know like a week in advance if I have an appointment or have to go somewhere so I can mentally prepare myself for that day.. The days I don't panic I think that something is wrong like something is going to happen to me so I start to panic and have a panic attack I did that to day lol.. Was fine all day couldn't stop thinking why am I not panicking and bang there you go I started to and had a panic attack...

I haven't been out with my friends in about three months I am always making excuses, I could just go on and on telling u..
Hope u feel better soon x

[sadia]

MC a friend of mine advised me to get a book called YOU CAN HEAL YOUR LIFE by Louise.L Hay.. My friend suffered fom anxiety for 15 years and has recently overcome it and is doing well.. She said this book helped her a lot.. I have purchased it a few days ago and as I read it some things jus click like I an relate to what the author is saying.. It might help you, I'm reading it to see if I can make a difference n myself because at the moment I feel like I am going loopy..

[sadia]

I'm really sorry to keep posting.. But do your eyes feel sensitive?? And after I cry my head feels really spaced out and wobbly like wobbly legs if that makes sense

[M.C]

At least now you know you re not the only one

And that might bring you some kind of relief
I ll try to get the book and give it a go
I ll do anything to get rid of this crap
You can keep in touch with me if you want
I have no problem with that
How did you get health anxiety? Have you had CBT ?meds?

[scared44]

Hi everyone I am fairly new to this forum so I don't even know if I am posting in the right place.... Basically since mid feb this year I ws diagnosed with overactive thyroid and was put on 20mg of carbizomle, bu that seems to be eating under control as my dosage has been decreased to 5 mg a day so I'm not to worried about that any more...
I ws also diagnosed with slight inflamation on liver which had me really worried, I had an ultra sound and the results came back as abnormal but that was apparently expected by the doctor.. The word abnormal has triggered something off in me and since that day i have been suffering from severe anxiety..

By severe I mean I can't even leave my own house I hardly go in the garden, I constantly think I am dying, it's like I have convinced myself that I am going to die, each day I wake up and the first thought I have that this is my last day on earth.. There's not been one day in the last 7 weeks where I haven't cried panicked I even had an ambulance called out to my house last week because I thought I was having a heart attack and was goin to die.. Vomited 4 times in 30 mins waiting for the paramedics to arrive, once they arrived they did and ecg and the wilt were perfect nothing wrong with the heart, I also had my blood sugar level tested and that was perfect,, the paramedic also listened to my lungs and they sounded normal aswel.. I only had a slight temp of 37.2 which the paramedic said was nothing to worry about..

I have also been having very very very bad tapped wind issues almost like its stuck in my chest and throat which make me thinks I'm dying again, I get really bad stomach aches with it.. All I constantly think about is death, it's almost like my inner voice is telling me that I am going to die.. I'm finding it very difficult to deal with. Live with my parents and sisters and I am constantly crying in front of them they are worried about me aswel, I don't like it if one or more of them go out because then I begin to think I ŵont be alive till they get back home.. I cnt have a shower without someone standing in the room with me, if I go to the doctors my sister escorts me there and back and it's literally 5 mins from my house, and when I do go its like I'm n a rush to get there and back cuz I don't want to die in between.. I feel I sound so weird writing this.. I'm sitting on my own right now everyone else is in other rooms doing there thing and I am slightly anxious..

I cnt watch programmes where people are dying, I have trouble sleeping sometimes and those hours that I am awake lying in bed are tough I just get really scared thoughts, as I am writing this I have jus had a thought that this is my last time writing something like this, I don't know what to do.. My whole body is feeling weak, my legs have no energy at all when I walk it feels like I'm bouncing or the floor is moving, my head is constantly feeling pressure, and when the pressure gets intense I feel like my heads going to explode and I am going to die, and that really makes me panic and I sometimes have to run out of the house to breathe.. I wake up every morning some morning I feel kind of ok and others I feel like crap.. I come downstairs and sit on the same spot of the same sofa everyday and do not move unles I have to use the toilet or when it's time to sleep.. It's sort of become a routine, and I feel like if this routine changes that's a sign that something is going to happen to me I can't stop thinking about dying all the time..... Omg I think I am going mad...

I have been to the doctors because I have had to get a sick note because I cannot leave the house, I told the doctor m symptoms and she says it sounds like anxiety with agoraphobia, and she put me on citlorapram which did not help at all so went back last week and she put me on some other pills which do ot work, I have another app with her next Thursday to discuss more options of different pills, she's not much help...

I seriously do not know what to do I was such an outgoing person, I have even resorted to online grocery shopping because I just don't want to go out in case something is gong to happen to me....

Does this sound like normal anxiety or have I got a different problem? Someone plz help me I have no idea at all..
I'm thinking I shouldn't post this cuz I'm gong to die pressing the send button is making ma anxious omg...

Hi, All your symptoms are classic anxiety! I used to think I was going to die with my panic attacks and 28yrs later I'm still here:-) You need to focus your mind on something else like hobbies, excersise, go for a short walk and break that habit your in. Take Care.... :-) xx