Hey y'all, going to the doctor (again) for another attempt at getting medication for my anxiety. My life has once again snowballed out of control, and I need to do something to get it under control. I have been on (2) different SSRI's, paxil and I think zoloft. I was not able to last more than 3 weeks on them, because it made my anxiety unbelievable worse and I just didn't seen an positive side effects. Also, recently was prescribed buspirone, but didn't really seem to experience any side effects, good or bad, so I decided it wasn't working and stopped after a month.
Then there are benzos. Been prescribed everything from xanax to klonopin. They help with the immediately with my anxiety, but I have a lot of issues with them. For one, I feel tired and very disconnected from reality. I just kind of sit around at work and home and don't get anything done. Secondly, I admittedly have an alcohol problem and have mixed benzos with booze before (I know the risk) and don't want to overdo that somehow and OD. Thirdly, I am very compulsive and either take more than the recommended dose, and end up like a zombie... one time I took my whole bottle of ativan and ended up in the ER.
Benzos are the only thing that seem to get my anxiety under control, but as I have stated above, I have a hard time with them. In my recent exposure to Benzos I have had a better handle on them than I have had in the past, but i'm not sure if I want to feel like a zombie day in and day out. Anyways, I am writing this thread in the hopes of someone supplying me with advice or recommendations on a medication that may be beneficial. There doesn't seem to be a lot of consensus on a cure-all medication and seems to be dependent on the person taking the medication, but if anyone has anything to share it would be very appreciated.