I have really bad insurance, which will be up very, very soon. I'm on anti-depressants, and get really messed up when i'm not.

I can't afford to go to someone that can help me with agoraphobia... The person that's taking it worse than I am, though, is my boyfriend. We've been together over 2 years, and i've only been to his house maybe 3 times. He always comes here. Recently he's been getting sick of having to come over. He says he loves me, and I believe him, but right now he gave me a choice... Get help now, or he's gone for good.

I don't know what i'm supposed to do. I know I probably can't get over this without help, and I just can't afford it. I already owe 40k for college... Last time I was left by someone i loved, i thought about killing myself... It was only a year with him, and i'm afraid of what will happen after two years.

Please help me?