Hi people I think I am just starting to develop an anxiety disorder. I am 16 years old and do not like things to stop my goals in life. Within the last year I have been feeling worried about things that have happenend in the past. It wasn't that bad at first, and I didnt notice it getting worse over time so I just keep ignoring it like most of you probably did in the begining. Later on I started to notice that it was getting worse after I smoked marajuana. I would get worse during the weeks after I smoked. I told myself I would never do it again, but being a kid and not knowing that something like this could happen to me, I smoked one last time. Now my anxiety is becoming way worse and has actually kept me up during the night. I have been researching what is wrong with me and have not told anyone at all that something is wrong with me yet. What I havent mentioned is that my father too suffers from anxiety and depression. I never thought it would happen to me since I always felt like a normal kid until now. I do not live with my mom and I should probably seek help soon but I dont want my dad to know. My question is, will telling my dad that I have anxiety too make him feel worse. Im worried he will feel its his fault and get more depressed about the situation. I think I read somewhere that it can be passed down to kids so that is what im thinking has happened to me.
I know in my head that what im going through isnt actually real im just imanging it which works very well and is what I do for now when I feel bad.
This is very hard for me I need some outside help besides my own personal thoughts! Thanks for your time and good luck to you as well.