I have been seeing my girlfriend for one and a half years. To me everything was fine up until recently. She is the most fantastic person i ever met and it is like i have known her forever. But she has led a secret life from me in that it was never explained to me by her that she had extreme anxiety . She hid that well with excuses and other tactics.
Anyway recently due to addictions , sickness, and other reasons she was completely taken off her medicines. They are now trying to find that magic pill that can get her back on tract. However i have lost her to the point where she will not see me at all even though i have made it very clear that i love her and would do anything too help.
She does not leave the house and she does have one safe person. It did get to the point that she would seldom answer my phone calls or even reply to my text messages i think because my wanting to see her put too much pressure on her. I am completely heartbroken because in her time of need i am not wanted. Yet her text messages spoke of her great love for me.
Recently i just could not hold back and made the mistake of going to her home and asked to be invited in or we could meet somewhere. I left the area without any confrontation since that was never my intention. We have not spoken or texted each other since then. I was so devastated that i cannot bring myself to call as i am of the opinion that she does not want me. Thus i am honoring her wishes.
So where do i go from here ?