Yup I know. I'm married and he can be right next to me and I still feel that way. It's oddOriginally Posted by n1ck13
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Yup I know. I'm married and he can be right next to me and I still feel that way. It's odd
Okay I'm really confused. People in here talk about group therapy and joining clubs to meet people. If you have anxiety isn't it hard or impossible to sit in group therapy or to join clubs and socialize with people? I feel alone too right now. I could never do group therapy altho tried. (And was refused any kind of intensive therapy/help if I wouldn't sit in group therapy hell. So was sent back home without help to a life that seriously needed some help. Which they knew. Oh my god I'm not pissed off or ranting about how psychiatrists and therapists usually don't actually care about people. )Or any group thing involving other people. Am I the only one like this?
No your not alone! I find it really hard to meet new people cause I'm not myself! I hate who I am when I try to "please" others cause I think that's who they want to see! Does that make sense?
My same feelings of loneliness comes and goes. I find talking on here helps alot and expressing your issues no matter how big or small. just vent, cause its better than bottling up inside. i have already gone close to erupting and found writing it all down, gets it out of my head and moving on.
I've tried opening up to people but I just feel like they think I'm attention seeking or something :/ Or they don't know how to handle it
Know just how you feel Nick. Can relate exactly. 2:30 in the morning right now and every second feels like an hour. I moved from NY to Fl 2 years ago to start a fresh life. 2 years later I'm no better off, 38, single, no job, constantly worried about my health, both physically and mentally. I'm in touch with my family and a few select close friends, and I feel like all I've been doing for months now is complaining about how terrible my life is to them each day. Always getting support, being told I'm better than I realize. I used to feel that way, know it. Now I question everything. I fell alone, depressed, unhealthy, isolated, and at a loss as to how to break out of it
Yep! And you just feel like you get told the same standard happy response that your better than you know and your s good person and things will get better...it doesn't help :/
Yeah, thats exactly right, same thing. Being told I'm so much better than i am. I'm lucky to have people that care, albeit they live half way across the country but that was my choice. A lot of people dont, thats never been the issue with me. Something just within side of me has gotten me to this place. And when they say that to me I know they are being genuine. But for me personally it doesnt change anything. Only I can break this pattern. Im just at a loss right now.
Do you have good days and bad days?
This seems to be a cyclical thing with me. I wont bore you with to many details, but just to give some insight. My issues seem to start around 6 years ago, give or take around 31 or so...as I mentioned Im 38. I was in a great relationship, 4 years, was engaged, but found out i had to have open heart surgery and ever since then I have had problems with anxiety, panic issues, etc. Surgery went fine, and in general im fine right now, as in healthy with my heart. But my relationship fell apart and ive been on my own since then, not just relationship wise, but also isolating myself. There have been times over those 5 or 6 years ive been in really good physical condition (working out 5-6 days a week, in great shape) and times when ive fallen off that wagon for months on end and put on 30 or 35 pounds, only to lose it again after getting fed up with myself.
I only mention all of this because you ask if i have good days and bad days. For me its more good months (or stretches of time) and bad months. We all have better days than others no matter how well or bad things are going in general in our lives. But when I'm doing well and not feeling the way i (or it sounds like we) do right now are the times when im being as healthy as i can be. Working out, eating healthy, maintaining positive thinking. They all seem to go hand in hand...I know, doesnt take a genius to know any of that right? But those are the things for me personally that seem to change things to head in the other direction. I know what to do. Ive been there (here) before and have turned it around. But i also revert back at some point. Start drinking more than i should, eating terrible, no excercise, less social. Seems like i have to hit rock bottom (which sounds horrible, but i dont believe my rock bottom is the same or as bad as a lot of others out there who go further or worse) before i wake up one day and say ok, today is day one and begin again.
So in general, right now in my life i dont feel like any days are good days. I do have what i would say are days that "arent as bad" as others, but wouldnt call them good. I know the things for me personally to change in order to hopefully get back on track, having done it before, but I just feel stuck. Cant even begin to think about taking that first step right now. And in the meantime I feel alone, depressed, isolated, hopeless.
I'm not sure of your age or background, or what has lead you to this point. Maybe you have made another post somehwere laying that all out that I havent seen. If you have leave a link here. Maybe you havent, and dont want to. I undersatnd that too. Feel free to share here, or private message me if you like. Whatever is best for you.
Your definitely not alone, I can tell you that. Not that knowing or even hearing that makes you feel any better right now. I know that too
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